Plain Gold Ring

Kimbra's singing is simply magical~

The Social Contract

Let's take a very mathematical view (game theory) on the concept of a social contract...

The definition of the social contract is simply the surrender of some of our rights for the protection of ourselves.

Let's explore this concept logically~

In a system of 2 people:

Let us take a simplistic view that A can kill B and vice versa, and that upon killing the other, the survivor can take the belongings of the other.

If either kills the other:

• The killer gains the other's possession
• The killer removes the risk of being killed (there's no one else to kill him!

If one does not kill the other (they enter into a social contract):

• They each keep the possessions of their own
• There is this big risk of being killed by the other as after one dies, there is no one else to uphold the tenets/law of the social contract.

It is pretty obvious that in a system of 2 people, the social contract fails.

In a system of 3 people:

Using the same simplistic view:

If one kills one of the other:

• The killer gains the other's possession
• The killer removes one chance of being killed (one less person out there possible to kill him)

Now let's put in a new concept, that the possibility of killing successfully is proportionate to the amount of possessions one has. (on a macro perspective, take it as though a nation with more resources can have higher chance of conquering a nation with less)

• The killer has an upper hand against the remaining survivor, and can thus subject power over him (or even kill him if the killer wants)

If one does not kill the other (they enter into a social contract):

• They each keep the possessions of their own
• There is this big risk of being killed by one of the others as after one dies, there is one who can try to uphold the tenets/laws of the social contract, but will ultimately fail.

It is thus pretty obvious again, that in a system of 3 people, the social contract again fails. 

In a system of 4 people:

Using the same simplistic view:

If one kills one of the other:

• The killer gains the other's possession
• The killer removes one chance of being killed (one less person out there possible to kill him)
• The killer has an upper hand against the remaining 2 survivor, individually, and can thus subject power over him (or even kill him if the killer wants). BUT if the 2 remaining survivors team up together, then the killer will only be on par with both of the 2 survivors. (though pragmatically possibly less)

If one does not kill the other (they enter into a social contract):

• They each keep the possessions of their own
• There is a risk of being killed by one of the others as after one dies, the killer will be on an equal standing (or almost equal stand) as the 2 remaining non-killing survivors.

Thus, in a system of 4 people, the social contract fails once more. 

Before we head on to a system of 5 people, let us note some of the changes which are occuring in the advantages/disadvantages of killing (as written above).
We can conclude that the social contract will be broken if the advantages of killing outweighs the advantages of being nice and not killing.
As more people are bound into the social contract, the benefits of killing starts to decrease in relative to being nice, let's prove this with a system of 5 people~

In a system of 5 people:

Using the same simplistic view:

If one kills one of the other:

• The killer gains the other's possession
• The killer removes one chance of being killed (one less person out there possible to kill him)
• The killer does NOT have an upper hand against the remaining 3 survivors, for individually, the killer can overpower and thus subject power over any other one(or even kill him if the killer wants). BUT if the 3 remaining survivors team up together, then the killer will be on risk of being killed, after all, the other 3 will acknowledge that the killing tendencies of our killer is potentially detrimental to their own well being.

If one does not kill the other (they enter into a social contract):

• They each keep the possessions of their own
• There is a risk of being killed by one of the others BUT they can at least be at a peace of mind to know that if someone kills them, their killer will not survive either.

In a system of 5 people, entering into a social contract is beneficial.

Notes:

• I assume that everyone wants to live
• I assume that everyone would want to live better if possible
• I assumed that killers act on their own (no collaboration in killing), if such a contract comes in, then ohh well, everything will be much different now.
• I did not take into account the fact that an attempt of killing another person may result in injury which will make oneself more vulnerable.
• In the same way, I did not take into account the element of time or skill (the killer can quickly kill everyone else before they can react) and the killer may be ultra buff and can kill 3 people in single combat kinda thing.
• AND I assumed that upon the existence of a killer, everyone else would team up together to stop the guy who broke the social contract.

These notes bring about a lot of implications:

The existence of collaboration in killing results in the possibility that killing can still occur on a large scale if a group of people decides to kill another group; a consensus breaking of the social contract.

The fact that killing another person may result in injury dissuades people from killing each other even further than just simply through the tenets of the social contract.

Time/Skill factors come in to a large extent! Individuals will try to make themselves more skilled at eliminating others as if that happens, they may ultimately be able to exert control over the rest (either after killing some poor dude, or without killing at all). This will result in all individuals making themselves more skilled at killing, not only to gain control, but due to the fear of being killed if they become (relatively) too weak.

If there are clear signs of disharmony and potential that upon a murder, the rest will not rise together to fight (or kill) the breaker of the social contract, killing has a higher chance of happening.

My longest post in a really long while... (possibly even my longest) shall elaborate on more next time!

I love the harmonizing~~

Is this what they meant by "kindred spirits"?

Today is a bad day... Okay, chem hons quiz not too bad... English AQ... not to bad... but PE WAS LIKE SHIT!! hai.. barely touched the ball.... hai. then running training... i totally suck. cant even do 300m in 1 minute... how am i supposed to run 4x400m relay?! sian la... got work to do, but dont feel like doing at all...

July 25th 2012, 3 days without you

Wow... Today was one rough day. Chemistry in class assignment was like gosh... I feel so horrible after chemistry in class assignment... I totally do not get electrochemistry >< I have to revise hard this weekend, and if then, i still do not understand, needa get help from Mrs Soong ASAP before the test! Hai... So stupid. I can't do chem major well at all... hai... ><

Then ARP! Wow. Learnt so much! We went down to learn from Aaron (Dr Kwan's Research Assistant) regarding how to do the reactions and all! Super cool! BUT SUPER FAIL! We screwed up big time haha. Added too much reactants here, added too little reactants there. Left the NaBH4 exposed too long without putting the other compounds! (NOTE: put it in the last! It's very unstable!) Our solution ended up some weird black yellow color when it was supposed to be light yellow... ohhwell. Aaron said he had to make 20 sets of solutions before he actually made one which was decent... meh ><

Was having a thumping bad headache halfway through the experimentation... well it's much better now i guess... after sleeping from 7-9pm... gonna sleep soon again after settling some stuff... ><

Tomorrow morning have to revise for Chemistry Honors Quiz + Study for English AQ sian... >< AND RUNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha, tomorrow is a long day... but once tmr is over... :) things would look much better... ball by ball, step by step... hai...

Well... Life without you doesn't seem so unbearable afterall... But there's still that silent ache... How are you doing? hai...

Since when were you interested in all this? Are you just trying to prove to me and to yourself that you are fine? I don't need you to do so. If you need to prove it to yourself, though, it means you are not.

Bored

1) Does people treat you as a side dish ? I think so xD 
2) What is your most favourite thing to do ? Sleep!
 3) What is the first thing that comes to your mind of when you think of love ? er. Pain
 4) What kind of boyfriend/girlfriend do you want ? HMM xD
 5) Is there somebody in your heart right now ? Should be...
 6) Do you believe that you can survive without money ? I actually think so HAHA
 7) Are you afraid of pain ? Who's not? But that does not mean it's not good
 8) What do you feel like doing now ? Sleeping
 9) If there is someone you love, will you confess to him/her ? I guess so xD
 10) List 5 things/people you dislike now. My headache, my messy room, my groupmates for not replying me, HOMEWORK! erm dunno la :/
 11) What is your 5 most passionate things at the moment ? How do things become passionate?
 12) If you have to eat 1 thing for your whole life, what would that be ? beef? or chicken? or egg?
 13) If you have a chance to be rich or happy, which one will you choose ? happy.
 14) If you have the chance, which part of your character would you like to change ? insensitiveness
 15) If you are unhappy, what will you do ? listen to music and pray?
 16) Which country do you like the most ? AUstralia? Singapore? O:
 17) Which is your favourite band ? DROPKICK MURPHYS MAN!!!!!
 18) Are you happy ? That is one tough question
 19) What are the three things you like about your family ? Funny, Open, apart

I don't want you to be sleepy when you are with me cannot meh? D;

maybe i should not even come online at all...

What if I don't feel like talking anymore? What if I don't feel the same anymore?

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It's relative, to you, a star may seem close to other stars. But in actuality, you are actually much closer to a star then stars are to each other.

Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

But that does not mean I mind it that way

I cant even carry my own weight. I screw up so many other people's lives. How am I to help others? Maybe I should stop trying.

I dropped down to my knees and I started to pray, don't know if you're up there, but I got a heavy load

switzerland

Alright, ohhwell, I'm in switzerland now. 2nd day I'm here, and the first proper full day xP ohhwell, okay, the flight was pretty good, I won't say much about it. Or maybe I will. First time I remember being on such a long haul flight (singapore to zurich) the real first time would be when I was a little kid, going to the US... Heh, I fell sick then, according to my mum. Anyway, lang haul flights are just super wts. Its like almost an entire day up in the air, but cos of the direction of flight, we arrived in zurich at like 8am? And then geneva at like noon. And it is seriously wth? 11 hours gone and I feel like I travelled for at least a day! Meh, but ohwell, the first day was good. Lunch was awesome! Heehee, the creamy pizza hashbrown thingy, and the chicken with potatoes! And the mediterrenean rice thingy hahaha...

Then night time, just had a lot of fun and just played stupid games with ian and jihyun till... 10 lol! Haha, yes, we slept really early. Anyway, damn funny, I escorted jihyun back to her room afterwards cos apparently it was not safe for a girl to move by herself at night haha, so liddat lo, its totally fine ba, but seriously, when I came back walking to my room, it was quite scary xP somehow it reminds me of some ghost movie cos like the hostel has many turns and stuff xP heh.

Anyway, then thaat was yesterday. Now, we are in some mall after highing for damn long, we decided to settle down for dinner. Thank so much that the waitress here speaks english, omg, I almost typed 'chinese' lol! So anyway, I shall recount tday backwards. I am damn tired, and I belive the others are tired too... Hmm, we were buying souvenirs in the supermarket. Ohhwait, not me, they were xP bought a lot of posh looking chocolates xP hahaha, anyway, afterwards we went around looking for food and styff... Meh, super tired now, I shall hold this post first and continue later
Okay! Side track people, the toilet is in a bar! So cool, like you just walk into the bar for the toilet!
Okay, now is after debrief, and I literally forget everything already except for the debrief la. Dr hang ain't such a boring afterall, he thinks quite a bit. Though the extent of which I am not too sure... Here's the question though, is it only some people who think, or only some people who say what they think? XP hahahah.

how much I miss you...

Dirt and Water

Which one is more important? The dirt which remains after the mixture dries up? after the water evaporates? The dirt which demarcates and shows the extent of the puddle?

Or the water? The water which made the puddle in the first place. The water which coagulated with the dirt to yield them visible to our eyes? Water which might again wash away the dirt?

Which is more important? An article of change, or its legacy?

The puddle of water

I see dirt, dust and water. Where there actually was first, dust, water AND blueberry tea.

But so what? even the ants would not know.

wow... a little interesting memory...

Wise ain't always good

The first to apologize is the humble one

The first to forgive is the wise one

The first to forget is the happy one

would u jus listen or try to give me ways such tt i could be happier????

well, for starters, your really vague advice which normally end with "its up to you how you wanna live your life" really help like. woah.

why do u lie to urself??

Maybe cos not doing so will tear me apart

u lied to me...

Only as much as I lie to myself

What if I feel pathetic, disappointed in myself? How much I wanna tear my heart out, and just let it burn into nothing

You know, sometimes, i just wanna lie down. on a field. and lay there resting for the entire day. rain, shine, moon, stars. I will just lie there and rest

ALALALALALALA~~~~

You

You, how much I love you, yet how much too I do not know how to express this love. You misunderstand me, and I have gone tired. The best I can do is to stay quiet and suffer in silence.

You, you who I know is always there for me, I do not know how you think sometimes. Sometimes, it just makes me feel like you have been fooling with me all these while. And that i am nothing but cheap slime to you.

You, you who I used to adore and care for so much, I do not know where we stand anymore. Sometime when I see you, I can sense that there is still something there. This feeling I have, is it true, or merely my own imagination?

You, my most dearest friend, you misunderstand me, and I do not know you anymore. How much I desire for a long day with you, just to talk about anything we want to talk about. I just wanna hear you talk. No jokes. No passing comments. No masks.

You, my little one, how much I think about you. You make life bearable for me. You make me smile through your little actions and gestures. You keep me looking forward. You keep me going. Nevertheless, sometimes you just tear me apart with the little things that you do. I guess its my fault. That I am too reliant on you, I have lost myself to you.

You 2. My little sisters, how it hurts to see us grow apart: it is like I no longer know you anymore. Yet this care I had for you, I still cannot let it go. It hurts, so much, to thinking about you.

You, my younger brother. What happened? It fills me with regret on how you have turned out. I still see a shadow of who you were. You have changed, true. But your mask now. It's bad, I do not like it. But, who am I to judge?

You, my punching bag. Yes, I will not hide the fact. I have treated you badly, I really have. When all doors were close, you stayed open and took my blows. I am sorry. Now, I have turned cold and only done you more wrong. Will I just turn out to be like the other 2? Or will this candle die out even before it reaches that stage?

You, my elder. I miss you. I miss sharing with you. I miss having your company, I miss learning from you. I feel like a little brother learning from his older bro. Sure, I doubt we are close. But being with you, it just lets me relax unlike anything else. How much I wanna be with you again... It's just so sad that you will be leaving...

I might lose some of you. I don't want to. But if I do, at least, I will remember.

There was a young boy who was running about in his home. And he fell... He did not cry, but he was shock. He expected his mum, who was nearby, to help him up. His mum walked over to him, but just stood there next to him. I doubt he understood, but after sometime, he stood up by himself. He looked up and expected to see his mum to be proud. But no. His mum shoved him and he fell again. He was hurt. Not his bum(that hurt of course), he was hurt more than that. He did not understand. He stood again, his mum shoved him again, and he fell again. Again and again, this happened. He did not understand his mum's actions, he did not understand his feelings. An nknown emotion rose within him, was it anger? was it betrayal? was it sadness? He stood once more, his mum shoved him. He held his ground. His mum walked away.

Some lessons need to be taught the hard way. That was my first.

Famine

LOL random yes, SIDE EFFECTS

I kinda like this song, quite random but ohhwell~ First embedded song on my blog LOL xP

hmm

Don't wanna do Chinese! X0

Weekends

I miss you. Will you come online? :/ Hai...

This is so nice

You were on your way home when you died.

It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.

And that’s when you met me.

“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”

“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.

“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”

“Yup,” I said.

“I… I died?”

“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.

You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”

“More or less,” I said.

“Are you god?” You asked.

“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”

“My kids… my wife,” you said.

“What about them?”

“Will they be all right?”

“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”

You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.

“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”

“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”

“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”

“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”

“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”

You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”

“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”

“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”

“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”

I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.

“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”

“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”

“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”

“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”

“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”

“Where you come from?” You said.

“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”

“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”

“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”

“So what’s the point of it all?”

“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”

“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.

I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”

“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”

“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”

“Just me? What about everyone else?”

“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”

You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”

“All you. Different incarnations of you.”

“Wait. I’m everyone!?”

“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.

“I’m every human being who ever lived?”

“Or who will ever live, yes.”

“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”

“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.

“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.

“And you’re the millions he killed.”

“I’m Jesus?”

“And you’re everyone who followed him.”

You fell silent.

“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

You thought for a long time.

“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”

“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”

“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”

“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”

“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”

“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”

And I sent you on your way.

Today meh

Okay, so today was fine. Talked to Miss Huang (ohh yea!) asked her if she was alright and stuff... well... i guess she is tired ba... (:

Then... CERN OSAP interview! so weird, Mr Tan and Mrs Oon ask me so much nonrelated questions.

e.g. How was ASXC? The new PIG members how?

LIKE LOL

okay, then after that got the YDSP Lecture series, woohoo!

"ahn-ge-niaar jer-neh-rale the larm-more~" lol thats how to pronounce his rank IGA.
Roughly translated to (General of armamant (weapons) engineering). So cool! he told me about their military research ranking system. its like they use the ranks in armed forces too! so like got captain/officer of (weapons) engineering. xP so cool right?

Ohh and he is quite amiable dude lol, very approachable~ lol he is also assistant secretary of general military investment of NATO like some big shot man! and he is like flying off tonight back to France to have a conference to convince the international team to invest and put research into making an integrated "live" "scanning" system... like the model he came up with its like using UV, infrared sensors etc to scan a landscape and develop a system to give live integrated view of wherever you wanna see anywhere, from foot soldiers all the way up to generals. so cool! haha

hmm... then was hunting for jeehyun lol, and joker la i forgot his name, the year 5 dude, spencer was it? he thought i wooing her 0.0 tsk, then after a long search i finally could contact her (yippie) lol. but turns out she got cluster outing so avalable like meh.

OHHOHHOHH! then spent time with zhangxian and joanna!!! whee~ (: miss them haha! we ended up watching MVs and singing along haha, lol. It really struck me how it appears that zhangxian and joanna swap souls lor! now the used to be quite zhangxian talk so much... and the last time hyper joanna so quiet lo... :/ meh... nvm la! (: tmr gonna play nb with them!

Ohh, and mum slapped me cos NSC did not win this year. LIKE WHAT DOES IT GOT TO DO WITH ME?

Ohh, and mum rubbed my tummy with medicated oil cos i feel damn bloated (: yay! me wanna be a little boy again...

On to bio mindmaps people! bye~

So things cropped up

Yea, things cropped up.

1. History AQ do on wednesday night (bobian liao)
2. Chinese debate thingy do on wednesday afternoon between ric's lessons

BIO MUST DO TONIGHT!

ohh well... today was very tiring... emotionally, mentally, physically. meh, but overall... i enjoyed the day, the process of the day kinda was very shitty, but i feel that it still ended up better than it began! (: yay, even though i did not get to finish my work (work can go suck cock! xD) lol. haha

So what else? ohh, i screwed math test up, and i did not have to study for it at all lo. erm im actually feeling quite motivated to do bio, but wanna go take a nap first... yawn~ nap till 11? xD ask sis wake me up?

Meh, now got new limits. no computer usage between 12 midnight-6am. but ohh well, i guess such might instill some discipline in me! (: haha, lol...

I miss you, i miss all of you. Can't wait for the day in which i can spend time with each of you. more like the period of time when i can spend a day with each of you... just chilling out and having fun and htht maybe? xD

Giving up on materialistic goals and ideals...

what I wanted to say was that I lived my life without loving... but now... maybe its more like i still live without loving? but that i yearn for love? i dunnno... but maybe... it will get better (:

The weekend

Woohoo, the weekend is over. the unproductive weekend is over, things are starting to get a bit more productive at the strike of 12. I only started revising for math properly since 12+ and now... i dunno, hopefully its enough revision. well... the weekend was epic slack. so slack i cant imagine it to be any slacker. somehow the only work i did was physics olympiad assignment questions 1-3 and question 2 done wrongly but whatever. THATS ALL. yea.

anyway... things to note for the next 2 days

Monday (Today):
Math Test (wheee~)
History AQ (CCA slot)
Chinese shit write-up thingy (2-3)
PIG meet the juniors session!!!! (3-4 OHYEA~!)

okay, first math test. revised already. no time to do practices so yea... last minute mugging during bio i presume? yes and then i made a little swap regarding history AQ and Chinese write-up thingy. cos i figured with the paper chinese write-up can be done in less than an hour an hence leave the longer 2 hour slot for history AQ

PIG SESSION!!!!! whee~ can't wait! well, the year 2s cant come. but not much for me, since i know ALL OF THE YEAR 2S le. xP so yea, gonna have fun i guess, with the year 3s, can get to know them AND OF COURSE CHEESENG AND YOS~~~ WHEEE~ (: and i can get to holler at CHEESE (yes you boy, dao my smses/calls) got nice phone still dont use!!! cannot sign up for designcentric ARP cos you never reply me!!! gar! but nvm (: i will enjoy scolding you tmr xP (if you somehow see this b4 then, fear it!) AHAHAHA

Monday Night!!

AND THE LONG PROCRASTINATED BIO MINDMAPS ARE TO BE DONE
yesyes, sorry miss huang but really. bio mindmaps. just. turn. me. off. BIG TIME. it is nothing against bio, nor you. nor mindmaps. its just graded bio mindmaps are retarded beyond compare. any graded mindmap/notes are cocked up. so yea. i will tell you (miss huang) that i will submit it all on tuesday. I dont know how you would feel or react, but yea. im sorry.


THEN SLEEP!!!

ohh... +chem prac (woopsy i forgot)

Tuesday...

wont be going PHYSICS OLYMPIAD (happy and sad) cos im gonna be emcee! OHHHHH AND NEEDA SHOUT AT MISS LI TOO!!! (Cheese, be glad, for now my attention has to be split up xD for later today) needa ask her about the script. it is so poorly written like come on! confirm she wrote it de lo. and it is meant for 1 person only. so yea. jihyun and I needa chiong edit it. which reminds me. that i needa record a few numbers cos i needa use them this/next week.

Did i mention that i can't use my phone this coming weekend? if no... I CANT USE MY PHONE THIS COMING WEEKEND! meh bleargh gar....

GOOD NIGHT AND SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW PEEPS AND GLHF FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS TEST COMING THIS WEEK BOOHOO~

(YEA! LONG POST HAH!)

It's Friday, and no longer your birthday.

notte di luce, una notte infinita, una lettera che non sara mai spedita...

i guess i really fail

i suck, that's why you can't leave me

When the world daos you

Play SC2 XP

GOGOGOGO

Let's do this sonny boy

NEW DAY! SPECIAL DAY!

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY GIRL~~ (:

REMEMBER OUR SOMEDAY PROMISES!!! XP

ASXC day

OKAY, damn depressing ASXC. We asked some science centre person to switch off our exhibit cos we left it on int he annexe and the person said she told her colleague and they switched it off le. Guess what! NO! they did not swtich it off... -.- our weakest laser overheated and by the time it was our turn to present, that laser barely shone and it looked stupid.

Then 1 judge was a cock. talk don't listen. like hello, people can know you are smart like being the awesome judge who is so awesome but i cant rmb his name: he was the smp dude and the guy at the first clinic. he is just super zai. so yea, this shit judge asked us a question but when i explain it to him, he thought i was bsing and did not even listen to me -.- lucky the nice dude told him to shuddup (in a nice way) our presentation was damn short. i dunno why. compared to the rest like 15 minutes ours was maximum 10 lo. but whatever. its over. I wanna get some prize!!!! like seriously all the hardwork xP wanna get some recognition for ASXC!!!

Okay then coming back to school. It poured,literally. got so damn wet. then in NUSHS, no rain at all. -.- we were all joking that maybe we should tell ppl we ran back to nushs from science centre. xP anyway, I came in like a boss, half way through mentoring, knock door walk in "sup guys! hi miss huang", then take a seat xP

well ace was kinda dumb anyway, conflict management, like... zzz....

then. CVL (: quite okay i have to say, im not complaining about him xP sitting next to punitha indeed makes me more mugger, never bring notes i still used foolscap paper to write stuff down and even attempted the questions xD

then afterwards went to try call mum tell her about the backup emcee thingy... but she never pick up... by the time i called her again, she already cooked rice le... so i went home. and then it was so awkward when i came home. i wanted to just kill myself like seriously the knife was just right infront of me. mum was like emoing and siansian, and i was like damn sad and feeling like shit. gosh... sent an apology email to caroline gordon then went to bathe. did my english letter (and finished it!) then im here now blogging...


okay i really suck right? i just left you there all by yourself? and you were saying that im not that bad? I miss you. I miss you so much.

HP/MSN

Maybe it would have been better if you did not come online