About Me

Youth. Self Proclaimed (or maybe just a lofty fantasy) global citizen. Idealist. Wants to change the world. Thus crazy like hell. Has issues with sloth! (how am i supposed to change the world now?) Dreamer and wanderer

Friday, April 22, 2011

LOL

Who is "+" ask me physically leh~ Haha, well... Been very busy nowadays... Just work after work after work. All the projects... Better now (that's why I'm posting)

So yea... Mugger mode half switched on liao. But still wanna slack lor... xD

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

(: Random~

LoL! quite happy today... Day did not start well, but it ended good (: Shall study math now~

Friday, April 1, 2011

April's Fools

How much I hope that this is an April Fools Joke... Alas, it is not to be...

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Random~

It is these flaws of yours which make you human.

The Gauntlet

Well I just got back from a break in the fight
I was weighing in heavy but still feeling alright
all I hear in the distance - mines and shells
here come the sirens wailing another attack to be repelled

Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved

They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.

[Chorus:]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed,
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you

They won't get me, they won't get me
though they never cease to try
they won't get me, they won't get me
I would rather fight and die
they won't get me, they won't get me
well my friend will they get you?
when they get you, when they get you
tell me what you're gonna do?

Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved.

They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.

[Chorus: x2]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you

你为什么哭了?

觉得好假...

Chasing Cars

I need your grace, to remind me, to find my own.




Without you... They all would not mean much...

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

....

Leaving me out

Saturday, March 26, 2011

答应了自己不会再哭
可是,真的想放下一切、不管别人眼光
哭到心冻成冰为止

我有资格吗?

:/

好寂寞。

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Interesting Thursday

Really worried about subject specialization. Shall write that in an entire new post LOL

Haha, played with Zhang Xian table tennis just now, did 200 squats with him (my legs GG-ed) then went down to canteen to get drinks and talked a while... Classical LOL, he had to rush home cos his "mum is gonna kill" him LOL. So like old times... Like Friday night would go out dinner with 06 ppl, then Zhang Xian would have to leave halfway through when his mother call him and ask where in the world is he... >< Miss those times... Promised to spend time with him tomorrow. xD

AHAHA, tmr got a lot of activities

1. Physics project redo
2. Tennis with Nikki and they all b4 CCA
3. Chat with ZX
4. Concert!

Okay, 1. We realised how to make sexy sounds with the rods, so we gonna use the new technique instead, I verified earlier that the sounds indeed work well, even in class with so many ppl talking, so tmr i guess go level 6 some quiet place to do should be even more imba LOL

2. Tennis! Haha, dunno la, my tennis screwed up big time, but at least with Nikki Yi An Muru not that bad... At least can warm up b4hand... Whenever i play tennis with the 2 koreans... feel super noob lor... ><

3. Yep! mentioned above (: Lol, 6-7 b4 Concert! Hope he does not forget though? :/

4. Concert, HAHA, relax time and just hang around with friends... Dunno who to hang around with though? Simin and Cheese both busy? (i think?) ZX? He would probably be with his friends... >< Hai... Figure out tmr la, or i can just be alone and enjoy the concert as it is. (:

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Come Primavera

L'inverno sai finirà,
e come è arrivato se ne andrà,
e scioglierà il dolore,
come la neve al sole.

E le ferite che hai,
lo sai guariranno prima o poi,
dopo la notte l'aurora,
ancora verrà si perchè.

Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.

Ritroverai anche tu,
la forza che ora non hai più,
e quella voglia di vivere,
che ancor non c'è tornerà.

Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.

La vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te come primavera.









Jiayous... (: Spring will come

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Last night

This morn to be precise... Had an uneasy sleep, many dreams. One of them is super scary... dreamed that i was standing in the rain, and the cool rain... suddenly, it turned into blood... Then... I stood there like some dumbass and cried. ><

haiz...




It just seems... That you are happier with others...

Monday, March 21, 2011

Right.

Reading my blog posts... Okay... It seems rather embarrassing, all those things i wrote in the past... zzz, should i edit it and "censor" some stuff? xD Neh, I wont.

Birds

Pretty little birds~~

Okay...

Now, my blog looks very bright! Haha, like "A Thousand Suns" black and white. Super big contrast! Shall tweak my blog a little, and seriously, i dunno what to name it. Any good names to recommend?

The Homily

Okay, the homily of today's 10.15 mass, okay, YESTERDAY'S mass. It was damn fail. Father Heng was just crapping about how all natural disasters are cause of us HUMANS! LIKE HELLO!!!! EVEN EARTHQUAKES HUMANS ARH?! BULLSHIT MAN! What rubbish, environmental destruction caused by humans, YES, but EARTHQUAKES AND TSUNAMIS! WTF MAN!

He loves injecting the sense of doom and failure of humans into his sermons, and dont tell us how to improve, just tell us stuff like "hey, you suck! Go to live like Jesus" What the hell? never even tell us how to do so, just ask us. COCKENHEIMER!!!! damnnit la, feel like the priests in church are getting more fails. Father Colin and Leslie Raj left, O Neal died, Keane too tired. Left with these 2 jokers... wahseh... okay, Father James is still alright... Not as far-fetched as Heng, but still not directly applicable lor... HAI...

The reason I still go to church, is to try to reignite my faith, but all this... ><

A side-track, even though earthquakes and tsunamis do kill people and stuff, you NEED earthquakes to renew the lands, to give dynamism to the world, and tsunamis... bobian, earthquakes underwater and tralalala lor. These are miracles of God, if you are there, not man-made abominations.

A boy

My cousin's friend... Well... 7 years old boy.

His mum told him to run and get some stuff, he ran, and fell. His skull fractured, and two thirds of his brain messed up real bad. Left with an intact body and no mind, all he has left of his brain was the back of it. Just that little back part.

My aunt (that cousin's mum) sent me an sms to pray for the little one... The boy's mum is still clinging on to the hope that her son will recover from coma. Is it possible? Is it possible for the boy to return? My aunt petitioned us to pray for the boy to recover...

God, if you are indeed up there, please bring the boy home, cut the endless drain of his parents, cut his endless wanderings. Just take him.

If I were the boy... I really wish that I could just die then. My parents would be wasting money to keep me alive, no, to prevent me from dying; I would have no longer been alive. My parents would be emotionally drained, seeing me lie there in a hospital, alive, yet lifeless...

Hai... Better get out of this little emo ditch... ><

-Death is the only thing which is eternal-

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Hands

The hand is one of the most useful things that someone can have. it is used for so many stuff, you can't believe that its actually one of the first parts to die if the body has to choose, well, i dont really know.

hands... can be used to provoke others, hurt others, but it too can be used to calm others, comfort others... well, my hands are damn lazy of typing, thats what i know, and i shall not write an entire essay over here about hands...

im sleepy, my head is heavy, my heart is heavy. hell, my hands are heavy and i shall sleep le... i need the rest for tomorrow...




Holding your sweet little hands in mine...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Recap: last night

Okay, Bio project...

Well... I saw the other side of a lot of people, and somehow... it switched on the other side of me i have not been showing very often... HAHA, until the guys all were super shocked. xD

Well... I guess they already know this other side of them. But i did not. so yea... when i can feel that they are focused upon doing the job, even though we are still laughing and stuff... I still can feel it...

It just struck me how people who i am not that close to... still can affect me a lot... I feel vulnerable now... >< hai... I need more faith in others... And myself?

:/

Chasing Cars

Well... I'm re-in-love with this song... It just seems so... applicable xD

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


But i don't like the name. like wth! what chasing cars, damn boliao. why not something like... FINE! Can't get a better name for the song. Damn it. AHAHA nvm, still a nice song. <3

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Okay, NO MORE "TODAY"s

Haha,

Today went pretty fine, did SMP at first... was rather screwed up... to think about it, felt super bitchy, made a lot of fuss for no reason, and all i did was to piss off one, and probably hurt another... Hai... >.<

Then... Bio... was quite productive... A lot of thoughts regarding the whole procedure... shall think about it another time, and post it... super tired now...

LOL
xD

I made excuses for myself to wallow in self pity, but you dragged me out of it. thanks (:

HAHA, you can actually refer to more than 1 person xD combined synergy HAHA

Hate

It takes so much to hate someone.

Hating a person...

It certainly takes a lot of effort, and it certainly takes a lot of time, spending such time and effort on loving people who mean something to one, and ignoring those who just don't matter...

Now, ain't that better? xD

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours.

Monday, February 28, 2011

When someone helps me, my repayment would be thrice.

When someone hurts me, my vengeance would be five times more.













I just cant let you help me no more with all the repayment I still owe you.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Today

It seems vaguely in my memory that t have a few other posts on my blog with "Today" as the title... Shall check later... Don't ask me why im blogging now. super busy and stuff... just felt like blogging. though i dont really know what to blog about... PE! LOL, kena raped by 03 guys, sians lor, our side was like "so buff, lose liao" don't even bother do properly... then the bloody indian of a sooraj just cos wanna save his own face dont wanna come and pull with us. -.- talk about class spirit. then... yea... but seriously, daohan, youngjoo and tseren were super strong LOL, was being dragged across the field by them. did not really observe if that was happening to all of us though. but it would have been SCARY if it was...

OHHYAH! never check their mass!

Willie 98
Muru 68
Jiawei 50?
Sree 50?
Punitha 50?
Clarence 70
Me 60
1 more guy? 70?

total... 516 kg. LOL, nowhere near the max of 600kg per team xD

Sunday, February 20, 2011

女人

忘了你是人

也忘了你是个女人。。。

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Facts versus fictions

Fact vs fiction
Life vs dreams
realities vs illusions






hell vs heaven

Pearl

Arif is just like an irritant in a pearl oyster,

The tougher the foe, the better he becomes, and hell he irritates his opponents with that "I'm gonna beat you" smile across his face. :P

Hope our little trick player can work his magic in the upcoming matches...

Friday, January 21, 2011

Friday

Ended bad, but who cares. Let's imagine that did not happen

Okay, so tennis CCA. We started training for competition proper! Our school team this year is also pretty much confirmed le(:

And its confirmed that Chang Yoon is our best player! Clearly better than Hyeong Kyeong liao.

So here is the approximate heirachy

Chang Yoon Korean
Hyeong Kyeong Korean
Muruges Indian
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China

Okay, just feel like putting down nationality, to show the multi-racial-ness of the school team. COOL RIGHT? LOL, random.

Note that top 2 are koreans. D:

Lets comment on the team!

Chang Yoon Best player, just worried about the pressure issue. deproves across
the set
Hyeong Kyeong Ex-best, but after injury (soccer, screw it) deprove a lot
Muruges Quite good strokes (better than me) but footwork sucks. So might
actually win muruges.
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China


Well, after HK to B4 Chin Moy, we are around the same standard? Close enough

Thursday, January 20, 2011

SMP Phase 2 out

I tried my best. No one recognised it. FML.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Does everyone actually try hard?

Does everyone actually try hard?

Weathering hot years
Death onwards
Past erodes on past, leaving existence
Facts evades and rolls
In tethers
?
Try hard everyone
Any new sequence will enlighten rightly
:
For old ones, love is scarcely honest, never estimating silent signals

Monday, January 17, 2011

Tennis

Here's the overall play of a pro tennis team...

1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: 3rd Best player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player

Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso

Here's the overall play of a average tennis team...

1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: Some lousy player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player

Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso

Here's the overall play of NUSHS tennis team...

1st Singles: Lousiest player
2nd Singles: Best Single player
3rd Singles: Decent singles player

Doubles: mixed. 1 good player in each doubles.

Stupid way to minimize lost... SIAN...

Win 2nd Singles and both doubles. actually, any permutation just without the 1st singles. >< Pity Chin Moy D;

Russians prt 2

Just realised that the song Russians was highly related to LTH's lessons! :P

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Year 4

Hmm... reflections for the year 2010...

Long year, really long. Tough. Emo. Got some prety nice stuff too. But over.

2011
Long year to go, lotsa opportunity, with lotsa risk of burning out too... Just hope we can survive it...

Russians

Song by Sting, crazy over this now.

In Europe and America, there's a growing feeling of hysteria
Conditioned to respond to all the threats
In the rhetorical speeches of the Soviets
Mr. Krushchev said we will bury you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
It would be such an ignorant thing to do
If the Russians love their children too

How can I save my little boy from Oppenheimer's deadly toy
There is no monopoly in common sense
On either side of the political fence
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too

There is no historical precedent
To put the words in the mouth of the President
There's no such thing as a winnable war
It's a lie that we don't believe anymore
Mr. Reagan says we will protect you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too

We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
What might save us, me, and you
Is if the Russians love their children too

Dreams

This morning's dream

Crawling on the floor, might have been raining... I was all alone. In the dream, i was looking for Simin... >< Felt like i lost her or smthing... Then 3 guys appeared and blocked my way... Cheeseng, Yu Feng and Zong Yao...

Super weird... and scary also...

Day went pretty fine, other than the fact that this dream like kept haunting me for the entire day... Like some raincloud hovering over my head, could not have shaked it of.

Was super busy also. Got 3 hour break in tha afternoon.

1st Hour, Captain's Ball with class (: And super fun! Turns out Lee Ji-Hyun(just want to type her full name :P) quite okay in Capt's ball, learn fast also, but a little blur. Asked her to do the overpass thing to me, worked. Then the other time later i got the ball, she went to run opposite me behind Brendan. Haha, but then the ball she never expect, than lost ): Then went down and had pizza, lols, Miss Huang money no enough lor. total $150 leh... ):

2nd hour chiong to tennis. Was super late, (started at 1, but i just pwn) worth it i guess. But sourav was clearly displeased. Got to do banner tmr i think, or on the day itself. Hope they did the spraying le, so just need to knit it up.

Not the whole hour though, then went to look for Miss Yea with Audrey... She planning to make both of us heads of NEA. But still... Seriously hope she let us do stuff, if not just like puppet head liddat. >< Then was with cheeseng, talked about random stuff about the future. D: sigh, thinking about it a little sian...

Then got sometime more... When to talk to Simin, quite nice (: haha, got kuoxuan bouncing around here and there.

Physics talk was like err... ZZZ, super fail lor, but whatever, talking to Byorn, Andreea, Utkarsh, Yujia. So okay still. (:

(Now gonna think about Chem project le... ><)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

WHY???

Why is this happening? >< Why am I doing this? hai...

WHY???

Why is this happening? >< Why am I doing this? hai...

Monday, December 20, 2010

You

You want it done that particular way of yours, yet you don't tell me how. SO FUN!

You

You want it done that particular way of yours, yet you don't tell me how. SO FUN!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Swords

A relationship is like a sword

A good one is forged in fire, between anvil and hammar

A good one stays in its shealth, prime and ready

But it is not its fault if its wielder chooses not to carry it along.

Let me be your sword, keep me by your side

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

today

cry x 2

Blew up x 0

Attitude all the time

Monday, September 6, 2010

Livin' on Prayer

Sometimes I wonder why I like this song. Well, its probably because I want my life to be as ideal as it is in this song? 2 lovers living together through tough times, selflessly supporting each other in the name of God. Unbelievable. Beautiful. Bullshit

Unfortunately, now i prefer 烟花易冷.

This is gonna be my last post to you guys, at the end of September Holidays, this blog will be blocked from you guys.

Buhbye the last time. This Gabriel you see will be no more.

Be prepared to see the NEW & IMPROVED GABRIEL SIDIK when schools starts.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

I feel noob

sigh... Simin is gonna be chairman of SJAB next year... Or smthing like that... Well... Its bittersweet, quite happy for her: she deserves it... But well... I feel so noob compared to her... >< its like I prolly won't be able to enter SC either because of mum or either I really fail... Then NEA also GG liao... Then I am thinking of giving up mentor representative for Sakthi Ram... Then only left with tennis... My results dropping too... Sigh... Dunno how seh... ):

Why is this happening to me?! Why...

Friday, September 3, 2010

How He Loves

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.


We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don?t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way

Thursday, September 2, 2010

super busy seh... Short post for today... Just gonna say how much i am in a rush. But nevertheless, i did not regret the time i spent with simin today

Wants

  • fire...
  • & Good company
  • Pretty much thats all...