Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Friday, December 2, 2011
switzerland
Alright, ohhwell, I'm in switzerland now. 2nd day I'm here, and the first proper full day xP ohhwell, okay, the flight was pretty good, I won't say much about it. Or maybe I will. First time I remember being on such a long haul flight (singapore to zurich) the real first time would be when I was a little kid, going to the US... Heh, I fell sick then, according to my mum. Anyway, lang haul flights are just super wts. Its like almost an entire day up in the air, but cos of the direction of flight, we arrived in zurich at like 8am? And then geneva at like noon. And it is seriously wth? 11 hours gone and I feel like I travelled for at least a day! Meh, but ohwell, the first day was good. Lunch was awesome! Heehee, the creamy pizza hashbrown thingy, and the chicken with potatoes! And the mediterrenean rice thingy hahaha...
Then night time, just had a lot of fun and just played stupid games with ian and jihyun till... 10 lol! Haha, yes, we slept really early. Anyway, damn funny, I escorted jihyun back to her room afterwards cos apparently it was not safe for a girl to move by herself at night haha, so liddat lo, its totally fine ba, but seriously, when I came back walking to my room, it was quite scary xP somehow it reminds me of some ghost movie cos like the hostel has many turns and stuff xP heh.
Anyway, then thaat was yesterday. Now, we are in some mall after highing for damn long, we decided to settle down for dinner. Thank so much that the waitress here speaks english, omg, I almost typed 'chinese' lol! So anyway, I shall recount tday backwards. I am damn tired, and I belive the others are tired too... Hmm, we were buying souvenirs in the supermarket. Ohhwait, not me, they were xP bought a lot of posh looking chocolates xP hahaha, anyway, afterwards we went around looking for food and styff... Meh, super tired now, I shall hold this post first and continue later
Okay! Side track people, the toilet is in a bar! So cool, like you just walk into the bar for the toilet!
Okay, now is after debrief, and I literally forget everything already except for the debrief la. Dr hang ain't such a boring afterall, he thinks quite a bit. Though the extent of which I am not too sure... Here's the question though, is it only some people who think, or only some people who say what they think? XP hahahah.
how much I miss you...
Then night time, just had a lot of fun and just played stupid games with ian and jihyun till... 10 lol! Haha, yes, we slept really early. Anyway, damn funny, I escorted jihyun back to her room afterwards cos apparently it was not safe for a girl to move by herself at night haha, so liddat lo, its totally fine ba, but seriously, when I came back walking to my room, it was quite scary xP somehow it reminds me of some ghost movie cos like the hostel has many turns and stuff xP heh.
Anyway, then thaat was yesterday. Now, we are in some mall after highing for damn long, we decided to settle down for dinner. Thank so much that the waitress here speaks english, omg, I almost typed 'chinese' lol! So anyway, I shall recount tday backwards. I am damn tired, and I belive the others are tired too... Hmm, we were buying souvenirs in the supermarket. Ohhwait, not me, they were xP bought a lot of posh looking chocolates xP hahaha, anyway, afterwards we went around looking for food and styff... Meh, super tired now, I shall hold this post first and continue later
Okay! Side track people, the toilet is in a bar! So cool, like you just walk into the bar for the toilet!
Okay, now is after debrief, and I literally forget everything already except for the debrief la. Dr hang ain't such a boring afterall, he thinks quite a bit. Though the extent of which I am not too sure... Here's the question though, is it only some people who think, or only some people who say what they think? XP hahahah.
how much I miss you...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Dirt and Water
Which one is more important? The dirt which remains after the mixture dries up? after the water evaporates? The dirt which demarcates and shows the extent of the puddle?
Or the water? The water which made the puddle in the first place. The water which coagulated with the dirt to yield them visible to our eyes? Water which might again wash away the dirt?
Which is more important? An article of change, or its legacy?
Or the water? The water which made the puddle in the first place. The water which coagulated with the dirt to yield them visible to our eyes? Water which might again wash away the dirt?
Which is more important? An article of change, or its legacy?
The puddle of water
I see dirt, dust and water. Where there actually was first, dust, water AND blueberry tea.
But so what? even the ants would not know.
But so what? even the ants would not know.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Wise ain't always good
The first to apologize is the humble one
The first to forgive is the wise one
The first to forget is the happy one
The first to forgive is the wise one
The first to forget is the happy one
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
would u jus listen or try to give me ways such tt i could be happier????
well, for starters, your really vague advice which normally end with "its up to you how you wanna live your life" really help like. woah.
why do u lie to urself??
Maybe cos not doing so will tear me apart
u lied to me...
Only as much as I lie to myself
well, for starters, your really vague advice which normally end with "its up to you how you wanna live your life" really help like. woah.
why do u lie to urself??
Maybe cos not doing so will tear me apart
u lied to me...
Only as much as I lie to myself
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
You
You, how much I love you, yet how much too I do not know how to express this love. You misunderstand me, and I have gone tired. The best I can do is to stay quiet and suffer in silence.
You, you who I know is always there for me, I do not know how you think sometimes. Sometimes, it just makes me feel like you have been fooling with me all these while. And that i am nothing but cheap slime to you.
You, you who I used to adore and care for so much, I do not know where we stand anymore. Sometime when I see you, I can sense that there is still something there. This feeling I have, is it true, or merely my own imagination?
You, my most dearest friend, you misunderstand me, and I do not know you anymore. How much I desire for a long day with you, just to talk about anything we want to talk about. I just wanna hear you talk. No jokes. No passing comments. No masks.
You, my little one, how much I think about you. You make life bearable for me. You make me smile through your little actions and gestures. You keep me looking forward. You keep me going. Nevertheless, sometimes you just tear me apart with the little things that you do. I guess its my fault. That I am too reliant on you, I have lost myself to you.
You 2. My little sisters, how it hurts to see us grow apart: it is like I no longer know you anymore. Yet this care I had for you, I still cannot let it go. It hurts, so much, to thinking about you.
You, my younger brother. What happened? It fills me with regret on how you have turned out. I still see a shadow of who you were. You have changed, true. But your mask now. It's bad, I do not like it. But, who am I to judge?
You, my punching bag. Yes, I will not hide the fact. I have treated you badly, I really have. When all doors were close, you stayed open and took my blows. I am sorry. Now, I have turned cold and only done you more wrong. Will I just turn out to be like the other 2? Or will this candle die out even before it reaches that stage?
You, my elder. I miss you. I miss sharing with you. I miss having your company, I miss learning from you. I feel like a little brother learning from his older bro. Sure, I doubt we are close. But being with you, it just lets me relax unlike anything else. How much I wanna be with you again... It's just so sad that you will be leaving...
I might lose some of you. I don't want to. But if I do, at least, I will remember.
You, you who I know is always there for me, I do not know how you think sometimes. Sometimes, it just makes me feel like you have been fooling with me all these while. And that i am nothing but cheap slime to you.
You, you who I used to adore and care for so much, I do not know where we stand anymore. Sometime when I see you, I can sense that there is still something there. This feeling I have, is it true, or merely my own imagination?
You, my most dearest friend, you misunderstand me, and I do not know you anymore. How much I desire for a long day with you, just to talk about anything we want to talk about. I just wanna hear you talk. No jokes. No passing comments. No masks.
You, my little one, how much I think about you. You make life bearable for me. You make me smile through your little actions and gestures. You keep me looking forward. You keep me going. Nevertheless, sometimes you just tear me apart with the little things that you do. I guess its my fault. That I am too reliant on you, I have lost myself to you.
You 2. My little sisters, how it hurts to see us grow apart: it is like I no longer know you anymore. Yet this care I had for you, I still cannot let it go. It hurts, so much, to thinking about you.
You, my younger brother. What happened? It fills me with regret on how you have turned out. I still see a shadow of who you were. You have changed, true. But your mask now. It's bad, I do not like it. But, who am I to judge?
You, my punching bag. Yes, I will not hide the fact. I have treated you badly, I really have. When all doors were close, you stayed open and took my blows. I am sorry. Now, I have turned cold and only done you more wrong. Will I just turn out to be like the other 2? Or will this candle die out even before it reaches that stage?
You, my elder. I miss you. I miss sharing with you. I miss having your company, I miss learning from you. I feel like a little brother learning from his older bro. Sure, I doubt we are close. But being with you, it just lets me relax unlike anything else. How much I wanna be with you again... It's just so sad that you will be leaving...
I might lose some of you. I don't want to. But if I do, at least, I will remember.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
There was a young boy who was running about in his home. And he fell... He did not cry, but he was shock. He expected his mum, who was nearby, to help him up. His mum walked over to him, but just stood there next to him. I doubt he understood, but after sometime, he stood up by himself. He looked up and expected to see his mum to be proud. But no. His mum shoved him and he fell again. He was hurt. Not his bum(that hurt of course), he was hurt more than that. He did not understand. He stood again, his mum shoved him again, and he fell again. Again and again, this happened. He did not understand his mum's actions, he did not understand his feelings. An nknown emotion rose within him, was it anger? was it betrayal? was it sadness? He stood once more, his mum shoved him. He held his ground. His mum walked away.
Some lessons need to be taught the hard way. That was my first.
Some lessons need to be taught the hard way. That was my first.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
LOL random yes, SIDE EFFECTS
I kinda like this song, quite random but ohhwell~ First embedded song on my blog LOL xP
Monday, October 3, 2011
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
This is so nice
You were on your way home when you died.
It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.
And that’s when you met me.
“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”
“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.
“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”
“Yup,” I said.
“I… I died?”
“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.
You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”
“More or less,” I said.
“Are you god?” You asked.
“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”
“My kids… my wife,” you said.
“What about them?”
“Will they be all right?”
“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”
You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.
“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”
“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”
“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”
“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”
“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”
You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”
“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”
“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”
“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”
I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.
“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”
“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”
“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”
“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”
“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”
“Where you come from?” You said.
“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”
“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”
“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”
“So what’s the point of it all?”
“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”
“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.
I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”
“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”
“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”
“Just me? What about everyone else?”
“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”
You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”
“All you. Different incarnations of you.”
“Wait. I’m everyone!?”
“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.
“I’m every human being who ever lived?”
“Or who will ever live, yes.”
“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”
“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.
“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.
“And you’re the millions he killed.”
“I’m Jesus?”
“And you’re everyone who followed him.”
You fell silent.
“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”
You thought for a long time.
“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”
“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”
“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”
“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”
“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”
“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”
And I sent you on your way.
It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.
And that’s when you met me.
“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”
“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.
“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”
“Yup,” I said.
“I… I died?”
“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.
You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”
“More or less,” I said.
“Are you god?” You asked.
“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”
“My kids… my wife,” you said.
“What about them?”
“Will they be all right?”
“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”
You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.
“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”
“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”
“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”
“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”
“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”
You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”
“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”
“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”
“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”
I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.
“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”
“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”
“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”
“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”
“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”
“Where you come from?” You said.
“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”
“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”
“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”
“So what’s the point of it all?”
“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”
“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.
I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”
“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”
“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”
“Just me? What about everyone else?”
“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”
You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”
“All you. Different incarnations of you.”
“Wait. I’m everyone!?”
“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.
“I’m every human being who ever lived?”
“Or who will ever live, yes.”
“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”
“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.
“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.
“And you’re the millions he killed.”
“I’m Jesus?”
“And you’re everyone who followed him.”
You fell silent.
“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”
You thought for a long time.
“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”
“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”
“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”
“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”
“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”
“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”
And I sent you on your way.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Today meh
Okay, so today was fine. Talked to Miss Huang (ohh yea!) asked her if she was alright and stuff... well... i guess she is tired ba... (:
Then... CERN OSAP interview! so weird, Mr Tan and Mrs Oon ask me so much nonrelated questions.
e.g. How was ASXC? The new PIG members how?
LIKE LOL
okay, then after that got the YDSP Lecture series, woohoo!
"ahn-ge-niaar jer-neh-rale the larm-more~" lol thats how to pronounce his rank IGA.
Roughly translated to (General of armamant (weapons) engineering). So cool! he told me about their military research ranking system. its like they use the ranks in armed forces too! so like got captain/officer of (weapons) engineering. xP so cool right?
Ohh and he is quite amiable dude lol, very approachable~ lol he is also assistant secretary of general military investment of NATO like some big shot man! and he is like flying off tonight back to France to have a conference to convince the international team to invest and put research into making an integrated "live" "scanning" system... like the model he came up with its like using UV, infrared sensors etc to scan a landscape and develop a system to give live integrated view of wherever you wanna see anywhere, from foot soldiers all the way up to generals. so cool! haha
hmm... then was hunting for jeehyun lol, and joker la i forgot his name, the year 5 dude, spencer was it? he thought i wooing her 0.0 tsk, then after a long search i finally could contact her (yippie) lol. but turns out she got cluster outing so avalable like meh.
OHHOHHOHH! then spent time with zhangxian and joanna!!! whee~ (: miss them haha! we ended up watching MVs and singing along haha, lol. It really struck me how it appears that zhangxian and joanna swap souls lor! now the used to be quite zhangxian talk so much... and the last time hyper joanna so quiet lo... :/ meh... nvm la! (: tmr gonna play nb with them!
Ohh, and mum slapped me cos NSC did not win this year. LIKE WHAT DOES IT GOT TO DO WITH ME?
Ohh, and mum rubbed my tummy with medicated oil cos i feel damn bloated (: yay! me wanna be a little boy again...
On to bio mindmaps people! bye~
Then... CERN OSAP interview! so weird, Mr Tan and Mrs Oon ask me so much nonrelated questions.
e.g. How was ASXC? The new PIG members how?
LIKE LOL
okay, then after that got the YDSP Lecture series, woohoo!
"ahn-ge-niaar jer-neh-rale the larm-more~" lol thats how to pronounce his rank IGA.
Roughly translated to (General of armamant (weapons) engineering). So cool! he told me about their military research ranking system. its like they use the ranks in armed forces too! so like got captain/officer of (weapons) engineering. xP so cool right?
Ohh and he is quite amiable dude lol, very approachable~ lol he is also assistant secretary of general military investment of NATO like some big shot man! and he is like flying off tonight back to France to have a conference to convince the international team to invest and put research into making an integrated "live" "scanning" system... like the model he came up with its like using UV, infrared sensors etc to scan a landscape and develop a system to give live integrated view of wherever you wanna see anywhere, from foot soldiers all the way up to generals. so cool! haha
hmm... then was hunting for jeehyun lol, and joker la i forgot his name, the year 5 dude, spencer was it? he thought i wooing her 0.0 tsk, then after a long search i finally could contact her (yippie) lol. but turns out she got cluster outing so avalable like meh.
OHHOHHOHH! then spent time with zhangxian and joanna!!! whee~ (: miss them haha! we ended up watching MVs and singing along haha, lol. It really struck me how it appears that zhangxian and joanna swap souls lor! now the used to be quite zhangxian talk so much... and the last time hyper joanna so quiet lo... :/ meh... nvm la! (: tmr gonna play nb with them!
Ohh, and mum slapped me cos NSC did not win this year. LIKE WHAT DOES IT GOT TO DO WITH ME?
Ohh, and mum rubbed my tummy with medicated oil cos i feel damn bloated (: yay! me wanna be a little boy again...
On to bio mindmaps people! bye~
Monday, September 26, 2011
So things cropped up
Yea, things cropped up.
1. History AQ do on wednesday night (bobian liao)
2. Chinese debate thingy do on wednesday afternoon between ric's lessons
BIO MUST DO TONIGHT!
ohh well... today was very tiring... emotionally, mentally, physically. meh, but overall... i enjoyed the day, the process of the day kinda was very shitty, but i feel that it still ended up better than it began! (: yay, even though i did not get to finish my work (work can go suck cock! xD) lol. haha
So what else? ohh, i screwed math test up, and i did not have to study for it at all lo. erm im actually feeling quite motivated to do bio, but wanna go take a nap first... yawn~ nap till 11? xD ask sis wake me up?
Meh, now got new limits. no computer usage between 12 midnight-6am. but ohh well, i guess such might instill some discipline in me! (: haha, lol...
I miss you, i miss all of you. Can't wait for the day in which i can spend time with each of you. more like the period of time when i can spend a day with each of you... just chilling out and having fun and htht maybe? xD
Giving up on materialistic goals and ideals...
what I wanted to say was that I lived my life without loving... but now... maybe its more like i still live without loving? but that i yearn for love? i dunnno... but maybe... it will get better (:
1. History AQ do on wednesday night (bobian liao)
2. Chinese debate thingy do on wednesday afternoon between ric's lessons
BIO MUST DO TONIGHT!
ohh well... today was very tiring... emotionally, mentally, physically. meh, but overall... i enjoyed the day, the process of the day kinda was very shitty, but i feel that it still ended up better than it began! (: yay, even though i did not get to finish my work (work can go suck cock! xD) lol. haha
So what else? ohh, i screwed math test up, and i did not have to study for it at all lo. erm im actually feeling quite motivated to do bio, but wanna go take a nap first... yawn~ nap till 11? xD ask sis wake me up?
Meh, now got new limits. no computer usage between 12 midnight-6am. but ohh well, i guess such might instill some discipline in me! (: haha, lol...
I miss you, i miss all of you. Can't wait for the day in which i can spend time with each of you. more like the period of time when i can spend a day with each of you... just chilling out and having fun and htht maybe? xD
Giving up on materialistic goals and ideals...
what I wanted to say was that I lived my life without loving... but now... maybe its more like i still live without loving? but that i yearn for love? i dunnno... but maybe... it will get better (:
The weekend
Woohoo, the weekend is over. the unproductive weekend is over, things are starting to get a bit more productive at the strike of 12. I only started revising for math properly since 12+ and now... i dunno, hopefully its enough revision. well... the weekend was epic slack. so slack i cant imagine it to be any slacker. somehow the only work i did was physics olympiad assignment questions 1-3 and question 2 done wrongly but whatever. THATS ALL. yea.
anyway... things to note for the next 2 days
Monday (Today):
Math Test (wheee~)
History AQ (CCA slot)
Chinese shit write-up thingy (2-3)
PIG meet the juniors session!!!! (3-4 OHYEA~!)
okay, first math test. revised already. no time to do practices so yea... last minute mugging during bio i presume? yes and then i made a little swap regarding history AQ and Chinese write-up thingy. cos i figured with the paper chinese write-up can be done in less than an hour an hence leave the longer 2 hour slot for history AQ
PIG SESSION!!!!! whee~ can't wait! well, the year 2s cant come. but not much for me, since i know ALL OF THE YEAR 2S le. xP so yea, gonna have fun i guess, with the year 3s, can get to know them AND OF COURSE CHEESENG AND YOS~~~ WHEEE~ (: and i can get to holler at CHEESE (yes you boy, dao my smses/calls) got nice phone still dont use!!! cannot sign up for designcentric ARP cos you never reply me!!! gar! but nvm (: i will enjoy scolding you tmr xP (if you somehow see this b4 then, fear it!) AHAHAHA
Monday Night!!
AND THE LONG PROCRASTINATED BIO MINDMAPS ARE TO BE DONE
yesyes, sorry miss huang but really. bio mindmaps. just. turn. me. off. BIG TIME. it is nothing against bio, nor you. nor mindmaps. its just graded bio mindmaps are retarded beyond compare. any graded mindmap/notes are cocked up. so yea. i will tell you (miss huang) that i will submit it all on tuesday. I dont know how you would feel or react, but yea. im sorry.
THEN SLEEP!!!
ohh... +chem prac (woopsy i forgot)
Tuesday...
wont be going PHYSICS OLYMPIAD (happy and sad) cos im gonna be emcee! OHHHHH AND NEEDA SHOUT AT MISS LI TOO!!! (Cheese, be glad, for now my attention has to be split up xD for later today) needa ask her about the script. it is so poorly written like come on! confirm she wrote it de lo. and it is meant for 1 person only. so yea. jihyun and I needa chiong edit it. which reminds me. that i needa record a few numbers cos i needa use them this/next week.
Did i mention that i can't use my phone this coming weekend? if no... I CANT USE MY PHONE THIS COMING WEEKEND! meh bleargh gar....
GOOD NIGHT AND SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW PEEPS AND GLHF FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS TEST COMING THIS WEEK BOOHOO~
(YEA! LONG POST HAH!)
anyway... things to note for the next 2 days
Monday (Today):
Math Test (wheee~)
History AQ (CCA slot)
Chinese shit write-up thingy (2-3)
PIG meet the juniors session!!!! (3-4 OHYEA~!)
okay, first math test. revised already. no time to do practices so yea... last minute mugging during bio i presume? yes and then i made a little swap regarding history AQ and Chinese write-up thingy. cos i figured with the paper chinese write-up can be done in less than an hour an hence leave the longer 2 hour slot for history AQ
PIG SESSION!!!!! whee~ can't wait! well, the year 2s cant come. but not much for me, since i know ALL OF THE YEAR 2S le. xP so yea, gonna have fun i guess, with the year 3s, can get to know them AND OF COURSE CHEESENG AND YOS~~~ WHEEE~ (: and i can get to holler at CHEESE (yes you boy, dao my smses/calls) got nice phone still dont use!!! cannot sign up for designcentric ARP cos you never reply me!!! gar! but nvm (: i will enjoy scolding you tmr xP (if you somehow see this b4 then, fear it!) AHAHAHA
Monday Night!!
AND THE LONG PROCRASTINATED BIO MINDMAPS ARE TO BE DONE
yesyes, sorry miss huang but really. bio mindmaps. just. turn. me. off. BIG TIME. it is nothing against bio, nor you. nor mindmaps. its just graded bio mindmaps are retarded beyond compare. any graded mindmap/notes are cocked up. so yea. i will tell you (miss huang) that i will submit it all on tuesday. I dont know how you would feel or react, but yea. im sorry.
THEN SLEEP!!!
ohh... +chem prac (woopsy i forgot)
Tuesday...
wont be going PHYSICS OLYMPIAD (happy and sad) cos im gonna be emcee! OHHHHH AND NEEDA SHOUT AT MISS LI TOO!!! (Cheese, be glad, for now my attention has to be split up xD for later today) needa ask her about the script. it is so poorly written like come on! confirm she wrote it de lo. and it is meant for 1 person only. so yea. jihyun and I needa chiong edit it. which reminds me. that i needa record a few numbers cos i needa use them this/next week.
Did i mention that i can't use my phone this coming weekend? if no... I CANT USE MY PHONE THIS COMING WEEKEND! meh bleargh gar....
GOOD NIGHT AND SEE YOU ALL TOMORROW PEEPS AND GLHF FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS TEST COMING THIS WEEK BOOHOO~
(YEA! LONG POST HAH!)
Friday, September 16, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
ASXC day
OKAY, damn depressing ASXC. We asked some science centre person to switch off our exhibit cos we left it on int he annexe and the person said she told her colleague and they switched it off le. Guess what! NO! they did not swtich it off... -.- our weakest laser overheated and by the time it was our turn to present, that laser barely shone and it looked stupid.
Then 1 judge was a cock. talk don't listen. like hello, people can know you are smart like being the awesome judge who is so awesome but i cant rmb his name: he was the smp dude and the guy at the first clinic. he is just super zai. so yea, this shit judge asked us a question but when i explain it to him, he thought i was bsing and did not even listen to me -.- lucky the nice dude told him to shuddup (in a nice way) our presentation was damn short. i dunno why. compared to the rest like 15 minutes ours was maximum 10 lo. but whatever. its over. I wanna get some prize!!!! like seriously all the hardwork xP wanna get some recognition for ASXC!!!
Okay then coming back to school. It poured,literally. got so damn wet. then in NUSHS, no rain at all. -.- we were all joking that maybe we should tell ppl we ran back to nushs from science centre. xP anyway, I came in like a boss, half way through mentoring, knock door walk in "sup guys! hi miss huang", then take a seat xP
well ace was kinda dumb anyway, conflict management, like... zzz....
then. CVL (: quite okay i have to say, im not complaining about him xP sitting next to punitha indeed makes me more mugger, never bring notes i still used foolscap paper to write stuff down and even attempted the questions xD
then afterwards went to try call mum tell her about the backup emcee thingy... but she never pick up... by the time i called her again, she already cooked rice le... so i went home. and then it was so awkward when i came home. i wanted to just kill myself like seriously the knife was just right infront of me. mum was like emoing and siansian, and i was like damn sad and feeling like shit. gosh... sent an apology email to caroline gordon then went to bathe. did my english letter (and finished it!) then im here now blogging...
okay i really suck right? i just left you there all by yourself? and you were saying that im not that bad? I miss you. I miss you so much.
Then 1 judge was a cock. talk don't listen. like hello, people can know you are smart like being the awesome judge who is so awesome but i cant rmb his name: he was the smp dude and the guy at the first clinic. he is just super zai. so yea, this shit judge asked us a question but when i explain it to him, he thought i was bsing and did not even listen to me -.- lucky the nice dude told him to shuddup (in a nice way) our presentation was damn short. i dunno why. compared to the rest like 15 minutes ours was maximum 10 lo. but whatever. its over. I wanna get some prize!!!! like seriously all the hardwork xP wanna get some recognition for ASXC!!!
Okay then coming back to school. It poured,literally. got so damn wet. then in NUSHS, no rain at all. -.- we were all joking that maybe we should tell ppl we ran back to nushs from science centre. xP anyway, I came in like a boss, half way through mentoring, knock door walk in "sup guys! hi miss huang", then take a seat xP
well ace was kinda dumb anyway, conflict management, like... zzz....
then. CVL (: quite okay i have to say, im not complaining about him xP sitting next to punitha indeed makes me more mugger, never bring notes i still used foolscap paper to write stuff down and even attempted the questions xD
then afterwards went to try call mum tell her about the backup emcee thingy... but she never pick up... by the time i called her again, she already cooked rice le... so i went home. and then it was so awkward when i came home. i wanted to just kill myself like seriously the knife was just right infront of me. mum was like emoing and siansian, and i was like damn sad and feeling like shit. gosh... sent an apology email to caroline gordon then went to bathe. did my english letter (and finished it!) then im here now blogging...
okay i really suck right? i just left you there all by yourself? and you were saying that im not that bad? I miss you. I miss you so much.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
Today
Dunno what to post. Today was tiring. Had some intense tennis (not to mention chionging SMP poster just b4 CCA xD) well there... then i still chose to go down to train afterwards... LOL, so sad cannot watch the running events which was held doing CCA times and the only classmate i watched was Rachel who was frigging imba! she was like from 4th place push all the way to 1st place, and that's not enough! she even pulled like almost 10 metres ahead of the 2nd runner! WOAH, all in 400m xD so pro lo! i'm so proud of her HAHA
Then yea, was motivated to train hard cos saw faraday losing a lot of the runs really badly... >< Was doing tiong suan's drills but afterwards got bored and ran 200m (failed, stop at around 180m BUT BIG IMPROVEMENT KAY?) I dunno la but always running the time will like be super dead after the curve and i feel myself slowing down and stuff... I don't even know if I am running in a considerable okay form... Then ran against Muru, HyeonKyeong in 100m, lost to both of them. According to leon who was watching, apparently i was too straight liao so get tired damn fast... (point to note) Like around 1.5m behind the other 2... hai so fail... I must seriously do some solid training to be ready for next year lo...
Ohh i forgot to mention that before i got bored and stuff... Haha, some year 2s were training too... Got joanna there xD spent some time feedbacking her runs and running with her... She seems to be pumping her legs damn fast but then... Short... so like... her sprint around my relaxed striding pace(and I still can talk and comment somemore) then luther down there can't get the normal starting position and then he like... zzz, like usual la! just talk cock no action one, he is gonna be so screwed for Monday's events man... ><
Then on the way home, met isaac at the busstop and started talking rubbish, then guess what? yawen, methien(if spelled correctly) and kelvin appeared! LOL they were gonna take 151 too to sunset way for dinner HAHA. So like we waited at the busstop for like super long then 1 151 came. BUT FULL. and so we decided to walk down. then nothing else much interesting happened. but ohh, i overheard a group of ACJC guys gossiping about politics between the current contestors for next year's ACJC school Captain of the CCA they are in. It would seem that they are like the Year 2s... but then... not too sure too.
LOL wrote so much.
:/ was hoping to see you
Then yea, was motivated to train hard cos saw faraday losing a lot of the runs really badly... >< Was doing tiong suan's drills but afterwards got bored and ran 200m (failed, stop at around 180m BUT BIG IMPROVEMENT KAY?) I dunno la but always running the time will like be super dead after the curve and i feel myself slowing down and stuff... I don't even know if I am running in a considerable okay form... Then ran against Muru, HyeonKyeong in 100m, lost to both of them. According to leon who was watching, apparently i was too straight liao so get tired damn fast... (point to note) Like around 1.5m behind the other 2... hai so fail... I must seriously do some solid training to be ready for next year lo...
Ohh i forgot to mention that before i got bored and stuff... Haha, some year 2s were training too... Got joanna there xD spent some time feedbacking her runs and running with her... She seems to be pumping her legs damn fast but then... Short... so like... her sprint around my relaxed striding pace(and I still can talk and comment somemore) then luther down there can't get the normal starting position and then he like... zzz, like usual la! just talk cock no action one, he is gonna be so screwed for Monday's events man... ><
Then on the way home, met isaac at the busstop and started talking rubbish, then guess what? yawen, methien(if spelled correctly) and kelvin appeared! LOL they were gonna take 151 too to sunset way for dinner HAHA. So like we waited at the busstop for like super long then 1 151 came. BUT FULL. and so we decided to walk down. then nothing else much interesting happened. but ohh, i overheard a group of ACJC guys gossiping about politics between the current contestors for next year's ACJC school Captain of the CCA they are in. It would seem that they are like the Year 2s... but then... not too sure too.
LOL wrote so much.
:/ was hoping to see you
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Super Computer Theory
*Disclaimer: This is gonna be long. So I wont write everything down in one shot, and no one is obliged to read this if you don't want to.
Assumptions:
1. Everything can be represented in fixed values which would obey all of current scientific laws
2. The current model of science is correct (kinda a prerequisite for Law 1)
3. Heisenberg Uncertainty can go and die for now
4. Quantum entanglement can go and die too (anyway, we don't really get this anyway)
Rambling:
Imagine a hypothetical Computer which can record the properties of every particle in a system, AND can then run a simulation of the activities of these particles at real time or a higher speed. Now imagine this system to encompass everything existing (Defined as (in this case) Universe).
Let us say that it can compute at higher than speed of light, it kinda simulates into the future (okay, 1 law of physics broken already damn). Or at least let us assume that it can compute at the same speed as everything else is going (c). Hence, we literally have 2 worlds, 1 which we exist in, and 1 which we can observe from a 3rd person's perspective.
*Side note: this works in a way to tell people to shuttup about higher than light speed information transfer (how?), well, if such a computer can be made to work at any speed faster than the speed of light, viewing the "computer screen of the-little-bit-of-the-future" from the computer screen would be equal to viewing a-little-bit-more-of-the-future" and so on forever if you choose to see the computer screen again and so on. This clearly is some pretty screwed up shit.
Back to main argument: We have 2 worlds running side by side. Exactly identical (yet independent) in all possible ways for now and forever.
Implications of this:
1. Fate exist (If a computer can predict what will happen to you in the future, or to be precise, what you do in the future, (even though it cannot predict it now, but it will predict it then when whatever happens).
2. There is no such thing as free will. (You think you have a choice, but in actuality, what you do after some thought is what you will do anyway. The thought process itself must too be simulated in our nice little computer)
More implications next time... Needa do work now
Assumptions:
1. Everything can be represented in fixed values which would obey all of current scientific laws
2. The current model of science is correct (kinda a prerequisite for Law 1)
3. Heisenberg Uncertainty can go and die for now
4. Quantum entanglement can go and die too (anyway, we don't really get this anyway)
Rambling:
Imagine a hypothetical Computer which can record the properties of every particle in a system, AND can then run a simulation of the activities of these particles at real time or a higher speed. Now imagine this system to encompass everything existing (Defined as (in this case) Universe).
Let us say that it can compute at higher than speed of light, it kinda simulates into the future (okay, 1 law of physics broken already damn). Or at least let us assume that it can compute at the same speed as everything else is going (c). Hence, we literally have 2 worlds, 1 which we exist in, and 1 which we can observe from a 3rd person's perspective.
*Side note: this works in a way to tell people to shuttup about higher than light speed information transfer (how?), well, if such a computer can be made to work at any speed faster than the speed of light, viewing the "computer screen of the-little-bit-of-the-future" from the computer screen would be equal to viewing a-little-bit-more-of-the-future" and so on forever if you choose to see the computer screen again and so on. This clearly is some pretty screwed up shit.
Back to main argument: We have 2 worlds running side by side. Exactly identical (yet independent) in all possible ways for now and forever.
Implications of this:
1. Fate exist (If a computer can predict what will happen to you in the future, or to be precise, what you do in the future, (even though it cannot predict it now, but it will predict it then when whatever happens).
2. There is no such thing as free will. (You think you have a choice, but in actuality, what you do after some thought is what you will do anyway. The thought process itself must too be simulated in our nice little computer)
More implications next time... Needa do work now
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I'm so tired
I'm tired of every lesson I have.
I'm tired of having to think so much about so many things
I'm tired of missing you late into the nights
I'm tired of wishing how everything could go back to when they were happier
I'm tired of being a shadow of my old self
I'm tired of being
I'm tired of having to think so much about so many things
I'm tired of missing you late into the nights
I'm tired of wishing how everything could go back to when they were happier
I'm tired of being a shadow of my old self
I'm tired of being
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Iridescent
oh hi, long since i last posted... well... i did not find this song any nice until just recently... somehow the lyrics just clicked to me and i feel so much comforted by it...
When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of tempered grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,
let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down, insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of tempered grace falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go,
let it go
let it go
let it go
let it go
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go, let it go.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
i dunno what to title this post
sometimes it seems like not being truthful to you is the better option...
sometimes it seems like i never knew you...
how could i have told you?
sometimes it seems like i never knew you...
how could i have told you?
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
hai...
How much I want to wake up tomorrow morning with you by my side and no one else in this world.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
This Morning
Let me embrace life,
all the joy and pain, sorrow and shame
with a sincere heart and an open mind
and if i fail, let it be a satisfaction unseen
that i have done my best and given my all.
all the joy and pain, sorrow and shame
with a sincere heart and an open mind
and if i fail, let it be a satisfaction unseen
that i have done my best and given my all.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Mockingbird by Eminem
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cause you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, ain't he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we were teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cause daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cause daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cause all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sitting in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cause you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, ain't he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we were teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cause daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cause daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cause all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sitting in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)
Monday, July 11, 2011
Someone
I really want someone whom i can cling on to no matter what. Someone who will push me onwards despite my God-given sloth. Someone who'll know when i fall and pick me up without me needing to ask for help. Someone who understands me without a word I say. Someone who will be there whenever i need a hug.
How could such a person exist?
How could such a person exist?
Yr 5 Commitments
Well there, hello. My ideal commitments for next year are as follows....
1. PIG (Physics interest group)
I CANNOT DROP THIS. not only do i feel obliged to Mr Tan, I also jio Cheeseng & Yos into it, and there are also Year2s who i encouraged to join... So yea.... I was slacking a lot last year le, this year however, i have been more active and I really believe that PIG is moving forward despite the lost of many of our seniors(really awesome people) I just hope that the future will be able to take step when we leave... If not, its just super irritating....
2. NEA
Well, sinking ship, but i wont leave my neas till its totally down. I just really hope that next year, more opportunities can be given and we wont be as choked as this year... Indeed if we are more active next year... I would be more busy... but... I really hope to be able to assist into the transition of NEA into council... The reason why i wanna be a singaporean citizen is really sparked off by my taking of NEA role in Year 1... I really want it to do well...
3. Tennis exco
hai... my tennis boys are really a joy to be with and they really show so much potential... Hoping that these boys would bring us further much is too much, but i really hope and believe that these boys will be the first major stepping stone onwards to the progression of tennis CCA... and i really wanna be part of it to nurture this little jokers (HAHA, thinking about them makes me laugh SO CUTE!!!)
4. Academically
MUST TAKE ---> Math, Physics, Chem honours
Might wanna take... Bio honors...
I really wanna finish up Physics Olympiad under Bernard Ricardo... I feel like this is a really good oppurtunity to be able to build up a strong mind for critical thinking (though i REALLY HATE THE TRIGO) AND SPhO!!!! At least a silver come on!!!! must jiayous!
5. ARP
SSEF GOLD!!!! MATERIAL SCIENCE PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS I really need a solid partner to help me out... gosh... I really dunno who? Cyrus? :/ His commitment level.. does it match mine?
6. Japanese
Study group for japanese... I wont be taking jap lessons anymore le... I just really hope to use the opportunity of being close to fellow friends to buff-en up my jap and preferably can take N3 by next year end... AND BE ABLE TO CONVERSE IN JAP BETTER!!!
7. You
My loved ones... I put you guys all the way at the back cos there's just so much to say here... I really don't know how else to say this... And how many of you will actually read this? I only know 3 people who told me they do... But I really treasure you guys... But there's just all these things up there cluttering me up... And you guys got your own lives as well... I really wanna be there for you guys whenever you need me... And really, im glad to be able to be your friends... (: I'm always here yea? (:
1. PIG (Physics interest group)
I CANNOT DROP THIS. not only do i feel obliged to Mr Tan, I also jio Cheeseng & Yos into it, and there are also Year2s who i encouraged to join... So yea.... I was slacking a lot last year le, this year however, i have been more active and I really believe that PIG is moving forward despite the lost of many of our seniors(really awesome people) I just hope that the future will be able to take step when we leave... If not, its just super irritating....
2. NEA
Well, sinking ship, but i wont leave my neas till its totally down. I just really hope that next year, more opportunities can be given and we wont be as choked as this year... Indeed if we are more active next year... I would be more busy... but... I really hope to be able to assist into the transition of NEA into council... The reason why i wanna be a singaporean citizen is really sparked off by my taking of NEA role in Year 1... I really want it to do well...
3. Tennis exco
hai... my tennis boys are really a joy to be with and they really show so much potential... Hoping that these boys would bring us further much is too much, but i really hope and believe that these boys will be the first major stepping stone onwards to the progression of tennis CCA... and i really wanna be part of it to nurture this little jokers (HAHA, thinking about them makes me laugh SO CUTE!!!)
4. Academically
MUST TAKE ---> Math, Physics, Chem honours
Might wanna take... Bio honors...
I really wanna finish up Physics Olympiad under Bernard Ricardo... I feel like this is a really good oppurtunity to be able to build up a strong mind for critical thinking (though i REALLY HATE THE TRIGO) AND SPhO!!!! At least a silver come on!!!! must jiayous!
5. ARP
SSEF GOLD!!!! MATERIAL SCIENCE PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS I really need a solid partner to help me out... gosh... I really dunno who? Cyrus? :/ His commitment level.. does it match mine?
6. Japanese
Study group for japanese... I wont be taking jap lessons anymore le... I just really hope to use the opportunity of being close to fellow friends to buff-en up my jap and preferably can take N3 by next year end... AND BE ABLE TO CONVERSE IN JAP BETTER!!!
7. You
My loved ones... I put you guys all the way at the back cos there's just so much to say here... I really don't know how else to say this... And how many of you will actually read this? I only know 3 people who told me they do... But I really treasure you guys... But there's just all these things up there cluttering me up... And you guys got your own lives as well... I really wanna be there for you guys whenever you need me... And really, im glad to be able to be your friends... (: I'm always here yea? (:
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Leadership
It just struck me, both the Imam and the Pastor were leaders in their own rights, both were militia leaders against each other... and they became peace advocates together afterwards... Maybe there is much to learn from these leaders... hmm...
integrate, not assimilate
The Imam and the Pastor
Well... The Imam & the Pastor, well just a brief background of these 2 holy-ly awesome men.
http://www.iofc.org/imam-pastor
so yea. Well, these 2 dudes were there on the conference thingy i went today, and it was really great to have them there, but really bitter to have MCYS head to ks them so much. Come on la, face it, MCYS minister of state dont do much compared to these dudes, like COME ON! gosh, but never mind. AND I SAW AARON MANIAM, ADAM MANIAM'S (MPP mentor) bro! AND THEY ARE A REALLY MIXED UP FAMILY OF LIKE PAKISTANI, INDIAN, CHINESE, and God knows what else!!!
Both the Imam and the Pastor were damn good. Like seriously, they were confident, humourous (even though discussing serious stuff). Even with their weird accented english, their vocabulary was strong, and they really could speak their minds, maybe it's cause they do it over and over so many times before, but really! they linked it back to the audience (us) like, referring to the organisers and to us students. It was really wonderful experience listening to these guys!!! I really would love the opportunity to talk to either one or both of them privately!!! So coolll!
So epic man like the Pastor lost his hand fighting against the Imam and it was like. THEY FORGABVE EACH OTHER!!!! like omg, so awesome.... I totally like admire these 2 men. hai... kinda bittersweet that we did not manage to interact with them more...
http://www.iofc.org/imam-pastor
so yea. Well, these 2 dudes were there on the conference thingy i went today, and it was really great to have them there, but really bitter to have MCYS head to ks them so much. Come on la, face it, MCYS minister of state dont do much compared to these dudes, like COME ON! gosh, but never mind. AND I SAW AARON MANIAM, ADAM MANIAM'S (MPP mentor) bro! AND THEY ARE A REALLY MIXED UP FAMILY OF LIKE PAKISTANI, INDIAN, CHINESE, and God knows what else!!!
Both the Imam and the Pastor were damn good. Like seriously, they were confident, humourous (even though discussing serious stuff). Even with their weird accented english, their vocabulary was strong, and they really could speak their minds, maybe it's cause they do it over and over so many times before, but really! they linked it back to the audience (us) like, referring to the organisers and to us students. It was really wonderful experience listening to these guys!!! I really would love the opportunity to talk to either one or both of them privately!!! So coolll!
So epic man like the Pastor lost his hand fighting against the Imam and it was like. THEY FORGABVE EACH OTHER!!!! like omg, so awesome.... I totally like admire these 2 men. hai... kinda bittersweet that we did not manage to interact with them more...
Friday, July 8, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Remembrance
Don't ever forgot how much you mean to me. Whenever you're sad, please bear in mind how much I cherish your smile, and even if im not there, or you dont want me to be... Do know that i care.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Man
Slaves of the very society they created. Who knew the almighty mitochondria would be at the service of eukaryotes? no one did. and in all ignorance they believed that they live and persevered on for themselves. true, but to what end. they only get to the furthest ends of the cell, any further, they will be destroyed. and now, the very environment of the cell causes mitochondria to grow in excess, and soon, cancer would come and death will consume all. in their ignorance, they believe that going further, hopping over to further cells would bring salvation, what salvation is that? such salvation only brings about increased egoism and shortsightedness, pride and ignorance. Chained to the unending pursuit of developments of its own destruction, and the destruction of all.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Cancer
Are we the cancer?
The leukocytes are meant to act as guardians, but if cancerous, they run amok and kill those they were to protect
The leukocytes are meant to act as guardians, but if cancerous, they run amok and kill those they were to protect
Friday, July 1, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
There's only 1 girl
There's only 1 girl i wanna hold in my arms
There's only 1 girl i wanna call my little girl
There's only 1 girl who makes me feel like nothing's impossible
There's only 1 girl who i would stare down her eyes for eternity
And that girl is you, my little girl
There's only 1 girl i wanna call my little girl
There's only 1 girl who makes me feel like nothing's impossible
There's only 1 girl who i would stare down her eyes for eternity
And that girl is you, my little girl
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Bittersweet
Well... today has been bittersweet, solved problems, found new ones, happy times, emo times, all in a day...
I'm numb...
I'm numb...
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Combo earlier
Haha, a song combo i heard earlier which was pretty nice:
1. Dies Irae by Mago De Oz
2. Hush, Hush by Pussy Cat Dolls
3. Regresa mi by Il Divo
4. Green Fields of France by Dropkick Murphys
5. Bolero by DBSK
haha
1. Dies Irae by Mago De Oz
2. Hush, Hush by Pussy Cat Dolls
3. Regresa mi by Il Divo
4. Green Fields of France by Dropkick Murphys
5. Bolero by DBSK
haha
Friday, June 3, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
反方向的钟
迷迷蒙蒙你给的梦
出现裂缝隐隐作痛
怎么沟通你都没空
说我不懂说了没用
他的笑容有何不同
在你心中我不再受宠
我的天空是雨是风还是彩虹
你在操纵
恨自己真的没用情绪激动
一颗心到现在还在抽痛
还为分手前那句抱歉在感动
穿梭时间的画面的钟
从反方向开始移动
回到当初爱你的时空
停格内容不忠
所有回忆对着我进攻
我的伤口被你拆封
誓言太沉重泪被纵容
脸上汹涌失控
城市霓虹不安跳动
染红夜空过去种种
像一场梦不敢去碰
一想就痛心碎内容
每一秒钟都有不同
你不懂连一句珍重
也有苦衷也不想送
寒风中废墟烟囱
停止转动一切落空
在人海中盲目跟从
别人的梦全面放纵
恨没有用疗伤止痛
不在感动没有梦
痛不知轻重
泪水鲜红全面放纵
出现裂缝隐隐作痛
怎么沟通你都没空
说我不懂说了没用
他的笑容有何不同
在你心中我不再受宠
我的天空是雨是风还是彩虹
你在操纵
恨自己真的没用情绪激动
一颗心到现在还在抽痛
还为分手前那句抱歉在感动
穿梭时间的画面的钟
从反方向开始移动
回到当初爱你的时空
停格内容不忠
所有回忆对着我进攻
我的伤口被你拆封
誓言太沉重泪被纵容
脸上汹涌失控
城市霓虹不安跳动
染红夜空过去种种
像一场梦不敢去碰
一想就痛心碎内容
每一秒钟都有不同
你不懂连一句珍重
也有苦衷也不想送
寒风中废墟烟囱
停止转动一切落空
在人海中盲目跟从
别人的梦全面放纵
恨没有用疗伤止痛
不在感动没有梦
痛不知轻重
泪水鲜红全面放纵
Slow Fade
Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
Green Fields of France
Oh how do you do, young Willy McBride?
Do you mind if I sit here down beside your graveside?
And rest for a while 'neath the warm summer sun
I've been walking all day, and I'm nearly done
And I see by your gravestone you were only nineteen
When you joined the great fallen in 1916
Well I hope you died quick
And I hope you died clean
Oh Willy McBride, was is it slow and obscene?
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
And did you leave a wife or a sweetheart behind
In some loyal heart is your memory enshrined?
And though you died back in 1916
To that loyal heart you're forever nineteen
Or are you a stranger without even a name？
Forever enshrined behind some old glass pane
In an old photograph torn, tattered, and stained
And faded to yellow in a brown leather frame
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
The sun shining down on these green fields of France
The warm wind blows gently and the red poppies dance
The trenches have vanished long under the plow
No gas, no barbed wire, no guns firing now
But here in this graveyard that's still no man's land
The countless white crosses in mute witness stand
To man's blind indifference to his fellow man
And a whole generation were butchered and damned
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
And I can't help but wonder oh Willy McBride
Do all those who lie here know why they died?
Did you really believe them when they told you the cause?
Did you really believe that this war would end wars?
Well the suffering, the sorrow, the glory, the shame
The killing and dying it was all done in vain
Oh Willy McBride it all happened again
And again, and again, and again, and again
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
Do you mind if I sit here down beside your graveside?
And rest for a while 'neath the warm summer sun
I've been walking all day, and I'm nearly done
And I see by your gravestone you were only nineteen
When you joined the great fallen in 1916
Well I hope you died quick
And I hope you died clean
Oh Willy McBride, was is it slow and obscene?
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
And did you leave a wife or a sweetheart behind
In some loyal heart is your memory enshrined?
And though you died back in 1916
To that loyal heart you're forever nineteen
Or are you a stranger without even a name？
Forever enshrined behind some old glass pane
In an old photograph torn, tattered, and stained
And faded to yellow in a brown leather frame
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
The sun shining down on these green fields of France
The warm wind blows gently and the red poppies dance
The trenches have vanished long under the plow
No gas, no barbed wire, no guns firing now
But here in this graveyard that's still no man's land
The countless white crosses in mute witness stand
To man's blind indifference to his fellow man
And a whole generation were butchered and damned
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
And I can't help but wonder oh Willy McBride
Do all those who lie here know why they died?
Did you really believe them when they told you the cause?
Did you really believe that this war would end wars?
Well the suffering, the sorrow, the glory, the shame
The killing and dying it was all done in vain
Oh Willy McBride it all happened again
And again, and again, and again, and again
Did they beat the drums slowly?
Did they play the fife lowly?
Did they sound the death march as they lowered you down?
Did the band play the Last Post in chorus?
Did the pipes play the Flowers of the Forest?
Rocky Road to Dublin
In the merry month of May, From my home I started,
Left the girls of Tuam, Nearly broken hearted,
Saluted father dear, Kissed my darlin' mother,
Drank a pint of beer, My grief and tears to smother,
Then off to reap the corn, And leave where I was born,
I cut a stout blackthorn, To banish ghost and goblin,
In a brand new pair of brogues, I rattled o'er the bogs,
And frightened all the dogs,On the rocky road to Dublin.
One, two, three, four five,
Hunt the hare and turn her
Down the rocky road
And all the ways to Dublin,
Whack-fol-lol-de-ra.
In Mullingar that night, I rested limbs so weary,
Started by daylight, Next mornin' light and airy,
Took a drop of the pure, To keep my heart from sinkin',
That's an Irishman's cure, Whene'er he's on for drinking.
To see the lasses smile, Laughing all the while,
At my curious style, 'Twould set your heart a-bubblin'.
They ax'd if I was hired, The wages I required,
Till I was almost tired, Of the rocky road to Dublin.
In Dublin next arrived, I thought it such a pity,
To be so soon deprived, A view of that fine city.
Then I took a stroll, All among the quality,
My bundle it was stole, In a neat locality;
Something crossed my mind, Then I looked behind;
No bundle could I find, Upon my stick a wobblin'.
Enquirin' for the rogue, They said my Connacht brogue,
Wasn't much in vogue, On the rocky road to Dublin.
From there I got away, My spirits never failin'
Landed on the quay As the ship was sailin';
Captain at me roared, Said that no room had he,
When I jumped aboard, A cabin found for Paddy,
Down among the pigs I played some funny rigs,
Danced some hearty jigs, The water round me bubblin',
When off Holyhead, I wished myself was dead,
Or better far instead, On the rocky road to Dublin.
The boys of Liverpool, When we safely landed,
Called myself a fool; I could no longer stand it;
Blood began to boil, Temper I was losin',
Poor ould Erin's isle They began abusin',
"Hurrah my soul," sez I, My shillelagh I let fly;
Some Galway boys were by, Saw I was a hobble in,
Then with a loud hurray, They joined in the affray.
We quickly cleared the way, For the rocky road to Dublin.
Left the girls of Tuam, Nearly broken hearted,
Saluted father dear, Kissed my darlin' mother,
Drank a pint of beer, My grief and tears to smother,
Then off to reap the corn, And leave where I was born,
I cut a stout blackthorn, To banish ghost and goblin,
In a brand new pair of brogues, I rattled o'er the bogs,
And frightened all the dogs,On the rocky road to Dublin.
One, two, three, four five,
Hunt the hare and turn her
Down the rocky road
And all the ways to Dublin,
Whack-fol-lol-de-ra.
In Mullingar that night, I rested limbs so weary,
Started by daylight, Next mornin' light and airy,
Took a drop of the pure, To keep my heart from sinkin',
That's an Irishman's cure, Whene'er he's on for drinking.
To see the lasses smile, Laughing all the while,
At my curious style, 'Twould set your heart a-bubblin'.
They ax'd if I was hired, The wages I required,
Till I was almost tired, Of the rocky road to Dublin.
In Dublin next arrived, I thought it such a pity,
To be so soon deprived, A view of that fine city.
Then I took a stroll, All among the quality,
My bundle it was stole, In a neat locality;
Something crossed my mind, Then I looked behind;
No bundle could I find, Upon my stick a wobblin'.
Enquirin' for the rogue, They said my Connacht brogue,
Wasn't much in vogue, On the rocky road to Dublin.
From there I got away, My spirits never failin'
Landed on the quay As the ship was sailin';
Captain at me roared, Said that no room had he,
When I jumped aboard, A cabin found for Paddy,
Down among the pigs I played some funny rigs,
Danced some hearty jigs, The water round me bubblin',
When off Holyhead, I wished myself was dead,
Or better far instead, On the rocky road to Dublin.
The boys of Liverpool, When we safely landed,
Called myself a fool; I could no longer stand it;
Blood began to boil, Temper I was losin',
Poor ould Erin's isle They began abusin',
"Hurrah my soul," sez I, My shillelagh I let fly;
Some Galway boys were by, Saw I was a hobble in,
Then with a loud hurray, They joined in the affray.
We quickly cleared the way, For the rocky road to Dublin.
Season of My Weakness
I pause a moment for reflection
Ponder this peaceful benediction
While all that surrounds me
Is benign
It seems I’ve lost my inspiration
My last artistic motivation
The only thing, I have enough of,
Is time
I whisper to myself that everything is gonna be alright tomorrow
Though I have nothing left, if I can make it through the night
My soul will be at peace and Ill go on
Its bitter cold and I am hurting
It’s been a long road that’s for certain
Bereft of aid, Ill climb this mountain
Alone
Antagonistic winds cut through me relentless
I scream aloud “Dear God I am helpless!”
But there are none to hear my desperate cries
But the stones
Ponder this peaceful benediction
While all that surrounds me
Is benign
It seems I’ve lost my inspiration
My last artistic motivation
The only thing, I have enough of,
Is time
I whisper to myself that everything is gonna be alright tomorrow
Though I have nothing left, if I can make it through the night
My soul will be at peace and Ill go on
Its bitter cold and I am hurting
It’s been a long road that’s for certain
Bereft of aid, Ill climb this mountain
Alone
Antagonistic winds cut through me relentless
I scream aloud “Dear God I am helpless!”
But there are none to hear my desperate cries
But the stones
Road Down
Ninety miles an hour, down this interstate
Driving on my last twenty dollars of gas
Got everything I own inside this Chevrolet
Going nowhere and that needle’s dropping fast
That woman broke my heart in St. Louis
Shot ‘em both and drove into the west after the sun
I’m chasing down my soul on my way to hell
Engine’s burning oil and I’ve got nowhere to run
As the daylight turns to dusk and that road keeps going further
Yeah my guilt comes washing over me
And with every breath I take you know those demons that I chase
Go ever free
And so I , buckle down and keep that engine whining
Running headlong to escape my destiny
There’s no going back my candles burning at both ends
On that old road down
Its midnight and I’m just outside of Santa Fe
Flat tire and my conscience finally got me off the road
I drop down to my knees and I start to pray
Don’t know if you’re up there but I’ve got a heavy load
At long last yeah, the devil has caught up with me
Whispers in my ear, with every mile you’re bound for hell
I’m asking you now Lord for deliverance
Take me from perdition, yeah with you to dwell
But the only sounds I hear are from the coyotes on the hillside
Yeah, their voices make a mournful harmony
Now I know that He is listening guess he don’t want to take a chance
On the likes of me
If I could somehow beckon to the grace of God
Prove that I am truly repentant
I tell myself there must be something I could try
I do not run in vain
My life is not worthless
Driving on my last twenty dollars of gas
Got everything I own inside this Chevrolet
Going nowhere and that needle’s dropping fast
That woman broke my heart in St. Louis
Shot ‘em both and drove into the west after the sun
I’m chasing down my soul on my way to hell
Engine’s burning oil and I’ve got nowhere to run
As the daylight turns to dusk and that road keeps going further
Yeah my guilt comes washing over me
And with every breath I take you know those demons that I chase
Go ever free
And so I , buckle down and keep that engine whining
Running headlong to escape my destiny
There’s no going back my candles burning at both ends
On that old road down
Its midnight and I’m just outside of Santa Fe
Flat tire and my conscience finally got me off the road
I drop down to my knees and I start to pray
Don’t know if you’re up there but I’ve got a heavy load
At long last yeah, the devil has caught up with me
Whispers in my ear, with every mile you’re bound for hell
I’m asking you now Lord for deliverance
Take me from perdition, yeah with you to dwell
But the only sounds I hear are from the coyotes on the hillside
Yeah, their voices make a mournful harmony
Now I know that He is listening guess he don’t want to take a chance
On the likes of me
If I could somehow beckon to the grace of God
Prove that I am truly repentant
I tell myself there must be something I could try
I do not run in vain
My life is not worthless
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
the previous post
it does not make sense if you google translate cos spanish got all those weird signs above the letters which i did not copy. so a lot of words dont get translated/dont make sense
Regresa A Mi
Okay, i have this random urge to type down the lyrics of this song. Not copy/paste. typed. LOL
No me abandones asi
Hablando solo de ti
Ven y devuelveme al fin
La sonrisa que se fue
Una vez mas tocar tu piel
Recuperemos lo que se ha perdido
Regresa a mi
Quere me otra vez
Borra el dolor
Que al irte me dio
Cuando te separate de mi
Dime que si
Yo no quiero llorar
Regresa a mi
Extrano el amor que se fue
Extrano la dicha tambien
Quiero que vengas a mi
Y me vuelvas a querer
No puedo mas sit u no estas
tienes que lgar
Mi vida se apaga sin ti a mi lado
No me abandonas asi
Hablando solo de ti
Devuelveme la passion de tus brazos
No me abandones asi
Hablando solo de ti
Ven y devuelveme al fin
La sonrisa que se fue
Una vez mas tocar tu piel
Recuperemos lo que se ha perdido
Regresa a mi
Quere me otra vez
Borra el dolor
Que al irte me dio
Cuando te separate de mi
Dime que si
Yo no quiero llorar
Regresa a mi
Extrano el amor que se fue
Extrano la dicha tambien
Quiero que vengas a mi
Y me vuelvas a querer
No puedo mas sit u no estas
tienes que lgar
Mi vida se apaga sin ti a mi lado
No me abandonas asi
Hablando solo de ti
Devuelveme la passion de tus brazos
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday 15th May 11:34 (okay, this is late, dad came back and had to move over back to grandma's place)
So yea, i shall just finish up this post
The Sidik period of events (At least mine)
Mum's bday on 7th May
Dad's Bday on 14th May
Ama's Bday on 15th May
Gong's Anniversary on 17th May
hai... it's late at night, and I am at my uncle's place waiting for dad... he went for Andrea Bocelli's concert, if i got the spelling of that dude right that is... well... I think so ba... Unless i got the Bocelli wrong...
My cousins are asleep above me, my grandma and her sister are in a room which door is 6 metres away from me at 1.30 direction... Not at chempaka putih, (so have internet access) well, i doubt anyone would know where the shit i am anyway eh...
A quick description of this place... I am on this relatively huge table, 4 metres long, 1 metre+ wide... black. infront of me it this random frame with nothing but a random flower motif in it.... which is rather pretty, its transparent and black floral patterns. Behind that screen would be a plasma tv and some sofas and stuff... futher behind that is the balcony, from which a stairs would lead to swimming pool...
OK FINE, i dont wanna continue describing that place le, in singapore now and cant really recall the details so yea.
The Sidik period of events (At least mine)
Mum's bday on 7th May
Dad's Bday on 14th May
Ama's Bday on 15th May
Gong's Anniversary on 17th May
hai... it's late at night, and I am at my uncle's place waiting for dad... he went for Andrea Bocelli's concert, if i got the spelling of that dude right that is... well... I think so ba... Unless i got the Bocelli wrong...
My cousins are asleep above me, my grandma and her sister are in a room which door is 6 metres away from me at 1.30 direction... Not at chempaka putih, (so have internet access) well, i doubt anyone would know where the shit i am anyway eh...
A quick description of this place... I am on this relatively huge table, 4 metres long, 1 metre+ wide... black. infront of me it this random frame with nothing but a random flower motif in it.... which is rather pretty, its transparent and black floral patterns. Behind that screen would be a plasma tv and some sofas and stuff... futher behind that is the balcony, from which a stairs would lead to swimming pool...
OK FINE, i dont wanna continue describing that place le, in singapore now and cant really recall the details so yea.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Indonesia
I'm off to Indonesia again. I'm supposed to be feeling like I'm going home, back to family and stuff... But well, I feel really unsure about everything... Can't wait to be back home, home in Singapore.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Day 2 of Exams
Well, now that my head is clearer, let's take a look at this...
LOL, Keith Loke thought i take malay as mother tongue, he was damn shock to see me doing gonghan, and was practically staring at my paper for like 10 seconds++ watching me write chinese LOL
Paper 1 was kinda screwed... >< super shit, i have no clue what i would be getting for it lor....
Paper 2 was better, but still, super fail, i thought it was 2 hours long, so was like planning to do a 30-45-45 for MCQ-Compre1-Compre2 timing, so when it was 15 minutes left, i was about to start compre2, i was like, "shit, GG, 15 minutes for compre2" lucky it was not too hard, and i managed to finish it on time, still got time look at victor rushing his compre xD
haha, math was fucking fun! like seriously fucking fun! super tiring and damn tough (for me) but i totally loved it lor! damn long have not done mathematics test/exams which actually gave me a sense of satisfaction (: totally awesome!!!!
Haha, then last night was pretty fine till i had to interact with people. took my bath, prep the house, then watched tv, sis came home, did not talk much. then parents came home, ate dinner. After that, i switched on lappie to check on whether Simin and Samantha came online since 8pm. lol, so i checked back and forth during tv advertisements (and yes, this is the only time i had watched tv properly for a really long time xD)
then dad came and kope the laptop, he disconnected the laptop from power supply without switching the powersupply off, damn WTF la, last time he scold me for charging laptop wrongly, then now he did that. WTFWTFWTF
Then i dont care, signed out of msn then logged into desktop. then after that just switched it off at the next commercial break, screw smp la, was fucking tired.
Then my mum passed me my phone, fucking irritating, just as i was about to sleep, cock la, i had to switch laptop on cos i had no phone, and YES, tuition! mum was scolding me why never tell tuition teacher i was not coming the following day, and i was like "WTF, where is my phone?" in my heart like duh, then went to call his home number. ya, anyway, then i was lying on the bed, then convo with mum
Mum"you wanna sleep le?"
Me"no"
Mum"you want on aircon?"
I obviously dont mind right? so damn bloody hot, i was already lying on my bed in only my boxers
Me"i dont mind"
so yea, mum switched aircon on.
so there, was smsing samantha telling her what to do, and she had to talk so much shit halfway through i realised i should have smsed simin instead of her. the whole point i smsed her was bcos i thought she would be damn dao and just like, "ok." and shuddup, end up she ask so much bloody questions and suddenly her last sms was "bull." WTFFFFF
i left my phone on my room table and laid on my bed, then after that smsed her a few more times, making sure she knows what she was supposed to do. then still no fking reply.
then after that, dad came into my room, i told him i was sleeping, (indeed i was asleep until he came in) then dad go look at my phone, i had a new sms, so i snatched the phone back. It was from a friend. then mum came in, and dad told her i was asleep
So mum got damn fucking mad, she scolded me for not returning the phone, then i got caned. (like so damn fucking long never get cane le) then after that she took my phone away.
I went online again afterwards(and did the previous post) mum came out and scolded me again and ask me to go to sleep. WTF man, just got caned and scolded you expect people go to sleep? i ended up lying on my bed screaming silently and hitting my head until i slept... damn
LOL, Keith Loke thought i take malay as mother tongue, he was damn shock to see me doing gonghan, and was practically staring at my paper for like 10 seconds++ watching me write chinese LOL
Paper 1 was kinda screwed... >< super shit, i have no clue what i would be getting for it lor....
Paper 2 was better, but still, super fail, i thought it was 2 hours long, so was like planning to do a 30-45-45 for MCQ-Compre1-Compre2 timing, so when it was 15 minutes left, i was about to start compre2, i was like, "shit, GG, 15 minutes for compre2" lucky it was not too hard, and i managed to finish it on time, still got time look at victor rushing his compre xD
haha, math was fucking fun! like seriously fucking fun! super tiring and damn tough (for me) but i totally loved it lor! damn long have not done mathematics test/exams which actually gave me a sense of satisfaction (: totally awesome!!!!
Haha, then last night was pretty fine till i had to interact with people. took my bath, prep the house, then watched tv, sis came home, did not talk much. then parents came home, ate dinner. After that, i switched on lappie to check on whether Simin and Samantha came online since 8pm. lol, so i checked back and forth during tv advertisements (and yes, this is the only time i had watched tv properly for a really long time xD)
then dad came and kope the laptop, he disconnected the laptop from power supply without switching the powersupply off, damn WTF la, last time he scold me for charging laptop wrongly, then now he did that. WTFWTFWTF
Then i dont care, signed out of msn then logged into desktop. then after that just switched it off at the next commercial break, screw smp la, was fucking tired.
Then my mum passed me my phone, fucking irritating, just as i was about to sleep, cock la, i had to switch laptop on cos i had no phone, and YES, tuition! mum was scolding me why never tell tuition teacher i was not coming the following day, and i was like "WTF, where is my phone?" in my heart like duh, then went to call his home number. ya, anyway, then i was lying on the bed, then convo with mum
Mum"you wanna sleep le?"
Me"no"
Mum"you want on aircon?"
I obviously dont mind right? so damn bloody hot, i was already lying on my bed in only my boxers
Me"i dont mind"
so yea, mum switched aircon on.
so there, was smsing samantha telling her what to do, and she had to talk so much shit halfway through i realised i should have smsed simin instead of her. the whole point i smsed her was bcos i thought she would be damn dao and just like, "ok." and shuddup, end up she ask so much bloody questions and suddenly her last sms was "bull." WTFFFFF
i left my phone on my room table and laid on my bed, then after that smsed her a few more times, making sure she knows what she was supposed to do. then still no fking reply.
then after that, dad came into my room, i told him i was sleeping, (indeed i was asleep until he came in) then dad go look at my phone, i had a new sms, so i snatched the phone back. It was from a friend. then mum came in, and dad told her i was asleep
So mum got damn fucking mad, she scolded me for not returning the phone, then i got caned. (like so damn fucking long never get cane le) then after that she took my phone away.
I went online again afterwards(and did the previous post) mum came out and scolded me again and ask me to go to sleep. WTF man, just got caned and scolded you expect people go to sleep? i ended up lying on my bed screaming silently and hitting my head until i slept... damn
Friday, May 6, 2011
Thursday, May 5, 2011
WAHLAO MY IPOD
I am not gonna shuffle in "English pop" anytime soon le, like 5 songs in the row lady gaga, then 3 from the script, then 5 from mariah carey. WTF LOL, where got shuffle~~ Rock here i come!!!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Organelles
It just struck me if some random person somehow entered my blog, they would think i am some hardcore nerd. anyway, ORGANELLE TIME!!!
Nucleus
Consist of Nuclear Membrane(2 layers) with pores (octets). Nucleolus.
DNA replicate here. All those stuff talk later in the later chapters la, anyway, ribosomes are made here, mix of RNA and proteins.
Ribosomes
60+40=80 Sveberg
With tRNA, translate mRNA into polypeptide
ER
Smooth synthesizes lipids carbohydrates and all the whatnot, in liver(especially) detoxify toxins.
Rough, produce proteins and stuff to send out of cell or to cell membrane(via golgi)
Golgi, post office and editor cis and trans sides, cis is incoming side, trans is going away, dynamic
Vacuoles, random balls in animals,
plants
1. trashbag
2. color holder
3. ensure turgidity
4. increase surface area: volume ratio
5. defensive chemicals holder
6. storage of good stuff?
7. i dunno liao shit
Lysosomes
Need activation from golgi. Consist of all the breaking down enzymes (lipase, proease, glucase, fructase, balalallala) generally lower pH for these enzymes to work.
Got primary lysosomes (fresh new nomnom) , secondary(nomnom already), autophagolysosomes (nomnom old organlles)
Mitochondria
Power houses. 3 layers? cisternae(like ERs) to increase surface area
Chloroplast
Power house. Consist of thylakoids. Photosynthesis. confirm 3 layers, but innermost layer extension.
Centrioles
Do nothing, plants dont have them
Nucleus
Consist of Nuclear Membrane(2 layers) with pores (octets). Nucleolus.
DNA replicate here. All those stuff talk later in the later chapters la, anyway, ribosomes are made here, mix of RNA and proteins.
Ribosomes
60+40=80 Sveberg
With tRNA, translate mRNA into polypeptide
ER
Smooth synthesizes lipids carbohydrates and all the whatnot, in liver(especially) detoxify toxins.
Rough, produce proteins and stuff to send out of cell or to cell membrane(via golgi)
Golgi, post office and editor cis and trans sides, cis is incoming side, trans is going away, dynamic
Vacuoles, random balls in animals,
plants
1. trashbag
2. color holder
3. ensure turgidity
4. increase surface area: volume ratio
5. defensive chemicals holder
6. storage of good stuff?
7. i dunno liao shit
Lysosomes
Need activation from golgi. Consist of all the breaking down enzymes (lipase, proease, glucase, fructase, balalallala) generally lower pH for these enzymes to work.
Got primary lysosomes (fresh new nomnom) , secondary(nomnom already), autophagolysosomes (nomnom old organlles)
Mitochondria
Power houses. 3 layers? cisternae(like ERs) to increase surface area
Chloroplast
Power house. Consist of thylakoids. Photosynthesis. confirm 3 layers, but innermost layer extension.
Centrioles
Do nothing, plants dont have them
Corrections for lecture 1 and 2
Well...
Bright field, video, cofocal scanning.
TEM Negative staining, shadow casting, freeze fracture, freeze etching...
Stereoscopic/compound light microscopes.
EMBEDDING
Well, only 8, missing the fact that they are complex/organised (too in your face for me to remember which kinda sucks.)
It's called (disrupts solidification at lower temperatures.
Fluid Mosaic: Lateral movement of phospholipids in plane of membrane with patterns and arrangements of proteins as they move about in fluid.
[frankly speaking, i dont really see the significance of this...]
And its AMPHIPHATIC!!!!! 2 "H"s lol
And i totally forget about the -cytosis parts.
But well, endocytosis and exocytosis. Endo is out to in, got pino, phago, and receptor mediated) exo just got 1 kind. used for releasing things into ECM or adding protein and stuff to the membrane LOL.
That's all for 1-2!
Bright field, video, cofocal scanning.
TEM Negative staining, shadow casting, freeze fracture, freeze etching...
Stereoscopic/compound light microscopes.
EMBEDDING
Well, only 8, missing the fact that they are complex/organised (too in your face for me to remember which kinda sucks.)
It's called (disrupts solidification at lower temperatures.
Fluid Mosaic: Lateral movement of phospholipids in plane of membrane with patterns and arrangements of proteins as they move about in fluid.
[frankly speaking, i dont really see the significance of this...]
And its AMPHIPHATIC!!!!! 2 "H"s lol
And i totally forget about the -cytosis parts.
But well, endocytosis and exocytosis. Endo is out to in, got pino, phago, and receptor mediated) exo just got 1 kind. used for releasing things into ECM or adding protein and stuff to the membrane LOL.
That's all for 1-2!
Mugging for Bio
As you can see, i am not really mugging now lol. Should be mugging bio, and am trying to. Gonna be reading Lesson 8 next, aka, last lesson. When I am done with that, shall take a bath, and if time, churn out a few more notes. Shall finish up the notes after dinner, and after that, read through my own notes a few times, test myself, then do math. Then test myself again.
Well... Lets be random and try to churn out stuff I should know.
Lecture 1
Microscopy and Cell Theory
Microscopy:
Who invented the Microscope --> Robert Hooke 17th century
Types of Microscopes:
SEM: Not elaborated on
TEM: elaborated a lot
Fix, dehydrate, stain, (shit one more here, cant rmb name) sectioning, mounting.
Light Microscope
Types:
Phase Contrast
Fluorescence
damn i have no more clue.
Cell Theory:
1. All organisms are made up of cells
2. All Cells come from preexisting cells
3. Cells are the basic unit of life.
Other things about Cells
I remember there are 9 things about this...
1. Cells use energy
2. Cells react to stimuli
3. Cells reproduce
4. Cells can regulate
5. Cells can make internal changes (hormones/enzymes)
6. Cells (shit, cant rmb le) have genes
7. Cells... zzzz
8.
9.
Chapter 2:
Membrane Structure and Function
Cell membrane there to separate internal and external environment
As for other membranes, like to ensure localisation of organelles peroxisomes, mitochondria
Fluid Mosaic Model: Fluid meant by the fact that phospholipids can move around all over the place laterally on the surface. Mosaic referring to the array of proteins on the fluid layer.
Thermo-regulation:
1. Kinks in lipid tail of phospholipids: prevent solidification by preventing the phospholipids from packing.
2. Cholesterol: At high temperatures, they restrain the movement of phospholipids
At low temperatures, they prevent solidification by prevention of
packing.
Molecules cross the layer via.
1. Passive transport (diffusion, facilitated diffusion{channel diffusion, carrier diffusion})
2. Active transport (against the concentration gradient) require hydrolyzing of ATP
Proteins
Peripheral and Integral (GG, math)
Peripheral--> on the layer, (signal transduction, support(connected to cytoskeleton)
Integral --> Ampiphatic, either all the way through or just one side. Used for transport mainly, as above. Other uses too like Cell to cell recognition, cell to cell adhesion, adhesion to ECM(same way as connection to cytoskeleton: for maintaining shape)
Other uses of Proteins, catalyst for reactions (enzymes), damn, i think im missing out on stuff too...
That's all eh?
Correction time!
Well... Lets be random and try to churn out stuff I should know.
Lecture 1
Microscopy and Cell Theory
Microscopy:
Who invented the Microscope --> Robert Hooke 17th century
Types of Microscopes:
SEM: Not elaborated on
TEM: elaborated a lot
Fix, dehydrate, stain, (shit one more here, cant rmb name) sectioning, mounting.
Light Microscope
Types:
Phase Contrast
Fluorescence
damn i have no more clue.
Cell Theory:
1. All organisms are made up of cells
2. All Cells come from preexisting cells
3. Cells are the basic unit of life.
Other things about Cells
I remember there are 9 things about this...
1. Cells use energy
2. Cells react to stimuli
3. Cells reproduce
4. Cells can regulate
5. Cells can make internal changes (hormones/enzymes)
6. Cells (shit, cant rmb le) have genes
7. Cells... zzzz
8.
9.
Chapter 2:
Membrane Structure and Function
Cell membrane there to separate internal and external environment
As for other membranes, like to ensure localisation of organelles peroxisomes, mitochondria
Fluid Mosaic Model: Fluid meant by the fact that phospholipids can move around all over the place laterally on the surface. Mosaic referring to the array of proteins on the fluid layer.
Thermo-regulation:
1. Kinks in lipid tail of phospholipids: prevent solidification by preventing the phospholipids from packing.
2. Cholesterol: At high temperatures, they restrain the movement of phospholipids
At low temperatures, they prevent solidification by prevention of
packing.
Molecules cross the layer via.
1. Passive transport (diffusion, facilitated diffusion{channel diffusion, carrier diffusion})
2. Active transport (against the concentration gradient) require hydrolyzing of ATP
Proteins
Peripheral and Integral (GG, math)
Peripheral--> on the layer, (signal transduction, support(connected to cytoskeleton)
Integral --> Ampiphatic, either all the way through or just one side. Used for transport mainly, as above. Other uses too like Cell to cell recognition, cell to cell adhesion, adhesion to ECM(same way as connection to cytoskeleton: for maintaining shape)
Other uses of Proteins, catalyst for reactions (enzymes), damn, i think im missing out on stuff too...
That's all eh?
Correction time!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Key
I believe that you don't have to find that key. when you are ready, the key would present itself to you.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Irae
I think Irae means wrath. Cos Dies seems more like "day" then wrath LOL
WOW, a lot of different poems and songs called Dies Irae. Guess there is that certain appeal to judgement day? xD
WOW, a lot of different poems and songs called Dies Irae. Guess there is that certain appeal to judgement day? xD
Dies Irae (translated)
Spanish to chinese
我挂晾
来自太阳的记忆
我做了招标
昨天的怀旧
而且我不会哀悼
但我不能忘记
所有荒凉
这带来的海神
哦！
模具irae马力士放逐法师是（X5的）
放逐法师是
当太阳的呼喊
她的眼泪
黄金和痛苦
融白人
盖亚是淬火和哭泣
地球出汗恐怖死亡
白贪婪的上帝的名义
天空在哭泣，我做的水坑
我觉得我的生命在我面前溜走
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
现在我的火山，自然灾害
全球变暖
没有人能淹没我的哭泣声
好吧，昨天获悉愤怒游泳
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
和黎明，黑暗死亡
我要回来，我会飓风
我挂晾我对太阳复仇
最后达到最终报复
哦！
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
马力士放逐法师是模具Irae（的X3）
Chinese seems more poetic than english translation so yea. AND DONT ASK ME FOR THE MEANING OF IRAE
我挂晾
来自太阳的记忆
我做了招标
昨天的怀旧
而且我不会哀悼
但我不能忘记
所有荒凉
这带来的海神
哦！
模具irae马力士放逐法师是（X5的）
放逐法师是
当太阳的呼喊
她的眼泪
黄金和痛苦
融白人
盖亚是淬火和哭泣
地球出汗恐怖死亡
白贪婪的上帝的名义
天空在哭泣，我做的水坑
我觉得我的生命在我面前溜走
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
现在我的火山，自然灾害
全球变暖
没有人能淹没我的哭泣声
好吧，昨天获悉愤怒游泳
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
和黎明，黑暗死亡
我要回来，我会飓风
我挂晾我对太阳复仇
最后达到最终报复
哦！
不要忘了我
现在我要去一个遥远的地方
当你感到恐惧
如果没有告别生活
我将离开
安装在海风
我住在你的记忆
并睡在你的心
马力士放逐法师是模具Irae（的X3）
Chinese seems more poetic than english translation so yea. AND DONT ASK ME FOR THE MEANING OF IRAE
Dies Irae
He puesto a secar
Los recuerdos frente al sol
He puesto a tender
La nostalgia del ayer
Y no voy a llorar
Pero no podré olvidar
Toda la desolación
Que los dioses trajeron del mar
¡Ohh!
Dies irae Malleus Maleficarum es (x5)
Maleficarum es
Cuando llora el sol
Sus lágrimas son
Oro y dolor
Se deshace el hombre blanco
se sació y gaia lloró
Muere la tierra sudando terror
La codicia del blanco en nombre de Dios
El cielo llora hace charcos y yo
Siento que se me escapa la vida ante mí
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Ahora soy volcán, desastre natural
Calentamiento global
Ya nadie puede mis gritos ahogar
Pues ayer aprendieron de rabia nadar
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Y al amanecer, al morir la oscuridad
Yo regresaré, yo seré el huracán
He puesto a secar mi venganza frente al sol
Llegará al fin la venganza final
¡Ohh!
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Dies irae Malleus Maleficarum es (x3)
Los recuerdos frente al sol
He puesto a tender
La nostalgia del ayer
Y no voy a llorar
Pero no podré olvidar
Toda la desolación
Que los dioses trajeron del mar
¡Ohh!
Dies irae Malleus Maleficarum es (x5)
Maleficarum es
Cuando llora el sol
Sus lágrimas son
Oro y dolor
Se deshace el hombre blanco
se sació y gaia lloró
Muere la tierra sudando terror
La codicia del blanco en nombre de Dios
El cielo llora hace charcos y yo
Siento que se me escapa la vida ante mí
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Ahora soy volcán, desastre natural
Calentamiento global
Ya nadie puede mis gritos ahogar
Pues ayer aprendieron de rabia nadar
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Y al amanecer, al morir la oscuridad
Yo regresaré, yo seré el huracán
He puesto a secar mi venganza frente al sol
Llegará al fin la venganza final
¡Ohh!
No te olvides de mí
Ahora voy hacia un lugar
En donde no existe el miedo
Donde no vive el adiós
Me marcharé
Montado en la brisa del mar
Yo viviré en tu memoria
Y dormiré en tu corazón
Dies irae Malleus Maleficarum es (x3)
Loyal to No One
I first meet this man at the Capen street Tracks
In no shape for success headed nowhere to fast
He may have been someone once by the sound of his call
Now he answers to no one
NO-ONE AT ALL!
We all die alone, he shouted as he passed
With no sense of regret, see he never looked back
Though his pride was wounded, his ego was strong
Yea that was his Trouble and this is his Song
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
His friends come and go like the seasons and tide
He can't keep a women they all realize
He loves them, leaves them, takes what he needs
He's loyal to no one, no one at all
You were brought up well still in spite of it all
You're touched by nothing, watch a man fall
Put a foot on his back to get a better view
Cause your loyal to No-one. NO-ONE BUT YOU!
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
He was broken and tired wouldn't take a hand
Their kindness was simple but he couldn't understand
See it's hard to have faith in something so new
When your loyal to no one, NO-ONE BUT YOU!
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
In no shape for success headed nowhere to fast
He may have been someone once by the sound of his call
Now he answers to no one
NO-ONE AT ALL!
We all die alone, he shouted as he passed
With no sense of regret, see he never looked back
Though his pride was wounded, his ego was strong
Yea that was his Trouble and this is his Song
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
His friends come and go like the seasons and tide
He can't keep a women they all realize
He loves them, leaves them, takes what he needs
He's loyal to no one, no one at all
You were brought up well still in spite of it all
You're touched by nothing, watch a man fall
Put a foot on his back to get a better view
Cause your loyal to No-one. NO-ONE BUT YOU!
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
He was broken and tired wouldn't take a hand
Their kindness was simple but he couldn't understand
See it's hard to have faith in something so new
When your loyal to no one, NO-ONE BUT YOU!
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
There'll be no talking your way out this time
So don't count the cash cause you leave it behind
You said we die alone, in this case you were right
No friends by your side or family in sight
Okay, so yesterday was quite screwed up
I just feel like no one cares about me and i am just this second grade doll which anyone can come pick up and play with me while they are bored, and throw me away when a better toy comes.
Yea sure, it's true that's what i normally give people the impression of eh? like, "hey, im here yea, when you need me, im here" so yea, when people need me, im there for them.
AND THEN when i need them, i dont go around crawling for help and comfort. just not my type, why should i go around getting help from others? Can't i fix my own problems, cant i just fix myself?
True, i do go around getting help from others, but it stops after a while, and im gonna make sure it stops here and now totally.
I shall hope for nothing, and let's see how this works out.
Yea sure, it's true that's what i normally give people the impression of eh? like, "hey, im here yea, when you need me, im here" so yea, when people need me, im there for them.
AND THEN when i need them, i dont go around crawling for help and comfort. just not my type, why should i go around getting help from others? Can't i fix my own problems, cant i just fix myself?
True, i do go around getting help from others, but it stops after a while, and im gonna make sure it stops here and now totally.
I shall hope for nothing, and let's see how this works out.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Life.
Life's tough. But make no mistake, it ain't gonna get any easier. Hell I wont be surprised if it gets much tougher. What i do know though, is that the only way to face the shit now, and the shit coming in, is to toughen up, YES, toughen up!
That's the only way to keep oneself going~
Toughening up for those one cares about and for
That's the only way to keep oneself going~
Toughening up for those one cares about and for
Last School Wednesday before Exams
Well...
yesterday was... BAD
heh, but it turns out that no matter how many bad things can happen in a day, each bad thing can't last that long, 1 minute time, and i can choose to let it go, or continue wallowing in misery and sorrow and emo shit and frustration and anger and disappointment. Well, yea, i just mentioned all the negative emotions i had yesterday
What good emotions did i feel? i felt bliss for a while, peace for a while too, actually kinda overlapped to today, but yea.
OMG, now im damn touched and happy~~
yesterday was... BAD
heh, but it turns out that no matter how many bad things can happen in a day, each bad thing can't last that long, 1 minute time, and i can choose to let it go, or continue wallowing in misery and sorrow and emo shit and frustration and anger and disappointment. Well, yea, i just mentioned all the negative emotions i had yesterday
What good emotions did i feel? i felt bliss for a while, peace for a while too, actually kinda overlapped to today, but yea.
OMG, now im damn touched and happy~~
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
LOL
Who is "+" ask me physically leh~ Haha, well... Been very busy nowadays... Just work after work after work. All the projects... Better now (that's why I'm posting)
So yea... Mugger mode half switched on liao. But still wanna slack lor... xD
So yea... Mugger mode half switched on liao. But still wanna slack lor... xD
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
(: Random~
LoL! quite happy today... Day did not start well, but it ended good (: Shall study math now~
Friday, April 1, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
The Gauntlet
Well I just got back from a break in the fight
I was weighing in heavy but still feeling alright
all I hear in the distance - mines and shells
here come the sirens wailing another attack to be repelled
Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved
They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.
[Chorus:]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed,
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
They won't get me, they won't get me
though they never cease to try
they won't get me, they won't get me
I would rather fight and die
they won't get me, they won't get me
well my friend will they get you?
when they get you, when they get you
tell me what you're gonna do?
Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved.
They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.
[Chorus: x2]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
I was weighing in heavy but still feeling alright
all I hear in the distance - mines and shells
here come the sirens wailing another attack to be repelled
Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved
They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.
[Chorus:]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed,
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
They won't get me, they won't get me
though they never cease to try
they won't get me, they won't get me
I would rather fight and die
they won't get me, they won't get me
well my friend will they get you?
when they get you, when they get you
tell me what you're gonna do?
Do you think we're gonna make it?
I don't know unless we try
you could sit here scared to move
or we could take them by surprise
it's submission that they want
it's surrender that they need
when we're doing it their way
their aims will be achieved.
They're gonna come when you're not ready
when you're not too well-prepared
they're gonna prey upon your weakness
no man's soul is ever spared
you've got to stand up, yeah, and fight them
show them what it's all about
this man is not for sale
there will be no backing down.
[Chorus: x2]
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
We shall succeed
Stand up and fight and I'll stand up with you
Chasing Cars
I need your grace, to remind me, to find my own.
Without you... They all would not mean much...
Without you... They all would not mean much...
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Interesting Thursday
Really worried about subject specialization. Shall write that in an entire new post LOL
Haha, played with Zhang Xian table tennis just now, did 200 squats with him (my legs GG-ed) then went down to canteen to get drinks and talked a while... Classical LOL, he had to rush home cos his "mum is gonna kill" him LOL. So like old times... Like Friday night would go out dinner with 06 ppl, then Zhang Xian would have to leave halfway through when his mother call him and ask where in the world is he... >< Miss those times... Promised to spend time with him tomorrow. xD
AHAHA, tmr got a lot of activities
1. Physics project redo
2. Tennis with Nikki and they all b4 CCA
3. Chat with ZX
4. Concert!
Okay, 1. We realised how to make sexy sounds with the rods, so we gonna use the new technique instead, I verified earlier that the sounds indeed work well, even in class with so many ppl talking, so tmr i guess go level 6 some quiet place to do should be even more imba LOL
2. Tennis! Haha, dunno la, my tennis screwed up big time, but at least with Nikki Yi An Muru not that bad... At least can warm up b4hand... Whenever i play tennis with the 2 koreans... feel super noob lor... ><
3. Yep! mentioned above (: Lol, 6-7 b4 Concert! Hope he does not forget though? :/
4. Concert, HAHA, relax time and just hang around with friends... Dunno who to hang around with though? Simin and Cheese both busy? (i think?) ZX? He would probably be with his friends... >< Hai... Figure out tmr la, or i can just be alone and enjoy the concert as it is. (:
Haha, played with Zhang Xian table tennis just now, did 200 squats with him (my legs GG-ed) then went down to canteen to get drinks and talked a while... Classical LOL, he had to rush home cos his "mum is gonna kill" him LOL. So like old times... Like Friday night would go out dinner with 06 ppl, then Zhang Xian would have to leave halfway through when his mother call him and ask where in the world is he... >< Miss those times... Promised to spend time with him tomorrow. xD
AHAHA, tmr got a lot of activities
1. Physics project redo
2. Tennis with Nikki and they all b4 CCA
3. Chat with ZX
4. Concert!
Okay, 1. We realised how to make sexy sounds with the rods, so we gonna use the new technique instead, I verified earlier that the sounds indeed work well, even in class with so many ppl talking, so tmr i guess go level 6 some quiet place to do should be even more imba LOL
2. Tennis! Haha, dunno la, my tennis screwed up big time, but at least with Nikki Yi An Muru not that bad... At least can warm up b4hand... Whenever i play tennis with the 2 koreans... feel super noob lor... ><
3. Yep! mentioned above (: Lol, 6-7 b4 Concert! Hope he does not forget though? :/
4. Concert, HAHA, relax time and just hang around with friends... Dunno who to hang around with though? Simin and Cheese both busy? (i think?) ZX? He would probably be with his friends... >< Hai... Figure out tmr la, or i can just be alone and enjoy the concert as it is. (:
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Come Primavera
L'inverno sai finirà,
e come è arrivato se ne andrà,
e scioglierà il dolore,
come la neve al sole.
E le ferite che hai,
lo sai guariranno prima o poi,
dopo la notte l'aurora,
ancora verrà si perchè.
Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.
Ritroverai anche tu,
la forza che ora non hai più,
e quella voglia di vivere,
che ancor non c'è tornerà.
Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.
La vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te come primavera.
Jiayous... (: Spring will come
e come è arrivato se ne andrà,
e scioglierà il dolore,
come la neve al sole.
E le ferite che hai,
lo sai guariranno prima o poi,
dopo la notte l'aurora,
ancora verrà si perchè.
Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.
Ritroverai anche tu,
la forza che ora non hai più,
e quella voglia di vivere,
che ancor non c'è tornerà.
Torna alla vita più serena,
che rifiorisce come primavera,
la vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te.
La vita grida a voce piena,
dentro te come primavera.
Jiayous... (: Spring will come
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Last night
This morn to be precise... Had an uneasy sleep, many dreams. One of them is super scary... dreamed that i was standing in the rain, and the cool rain... suddenly, it turned into blood... Then... I stood there like some dumbass and cried. ><
Monday, March 21, 2011
Right.
Reading my blog posts... Okay... It seems rather embarrassing, all those things i wrote in the past... zzz, should i edit it and "censor" some stuff? xD Neh, I wont.
Okay...
Now, my blog looks very bright! Haha, like "A Thousand Suns" black and white. Super big contrast! Shall tweak my blog a little, and seriously, i dunno what to name it. Any good names to recommend?
The Homily
Okay, the homily of today's 10.15 mass, okay, YESTERDAY'S mass. It was damn fail. Father Heng was just crapping about how all natural disasters are cause of us HUMANS! LIKE HELLO!!!! EVEN EARTHQUAKES HUMANS ARH?! BULLSHIT MAN! What rubbish, environmental destruction caused by humans, YES, but EARTHQUAKES AND TSUNAMIS! WTF MAN!
He loves injecting the sense of doom and failure of humans into his sermons, and dont tell us how to improve, just tell us stuff like "hey, you suck! Go to live like Jesus" What the hell? never even tell us how to do so, just ask us. COCKENHEIMER!!!! damnnit la, feel like the priests in church are getting more fails. Father Colin and Leslie Raj left, O Neal died, Keane too tired. Left with these 2 jokers... wahseh... okay, Father James is still alright... Not as far-fetched as Heng, but still not directly applicable lor... HAI...
The reason I still go to church, is to try to reignite my faith, but all this... ><
A side-track, even though earthquakes and tsunamis do kill people and stuff, you NEED earthquakes to renew the lands, to give dynamism to the world, and tsunamis... bobian, earthquakes underwater and tralalala lor. These are miracles of God, if you are there, not man-made abominations.
He loves injecting the sense of doom and failure of humans into his sermons, and dont tell us how to improve, just tell us stuff like "hey, you suck! Go to live like Jesus" What the hell? never even tell us how to do so, just ask us. COCKENHEIMER!!!! damnnit la, feel like the priests in church are getting more fails. Father Colin and Leslie Raj left, O Neal died, Keane too tired. Left with these 2 jokers... wahseh... okay, Father James is still alright... Not as far-fetched as Heng, but still not directly applicable lor... HAI...
The reason I still go to church, is to try to reignite my faith, but all this... ><
A side-track, even though earthquakes and tsunamis do kill people and stuff, you NEED earthquakes to renew the lands, to give dynamism to the world, and tsunamis... bobian, earthquakes underwater and tralalala lor. These are miracles of God, if you are there, not man-made abominations.
A boy
My cousin's friend... Well... 7 years old boy.
His mum told him to run and get some stuff, he ran, and fell. His skull fractured, and two thirds of his brain messed up real bad. Left with an intact body and no mind, all he has left of his brain was the back of it. Just that little back part.
My aunt (that cousin's mum) sent me an sms to pray for the little one... The boy's mum is still clinging on to the hope that her son will recover from coma. Is it possible? Is it possible for the boy to return? My aunt petitioned us to pray for the boy to recover...
God, if you are indeed up there, please bring the boy home, cut the endless drain of his parents, cut his endless wanderings. Just take him.
If I were the boy... I really wish that I could just die then. My parents would be wasting money to keep me alive, no, to prevent me from dying; I would have no longer been alive. My parents would be emotionally drained, seeing me lie there in a hospital, alive, yet lifeless...
Hai... Better get out of this little emo ditch... ><
-Death is the only thing which is eternal-
His mum told him to run and get some stuff, he ran, and fell. His skull fractured, and two thirds of his brain messed up real bad. Left with an intact body and no mind, all he has left of his brain was the back of it. Just that little back part.
My aunt (that cousin's mum) sent me an sms to pray for the little one... The boy's mum is still clinging on to the hope that her son will recover from coma. Is it possible? Is it possible for the boy to return? My aunt petitioned us to pray for the boy to recover...
God, if you are indeed up there, please bring the boy home, cut the endless drain of his parents, cut his endless wanderings. Just take him.
If I were the boy... I really wish that I could just die then. My parents would be wasting money to keep me alive, no, to prevent me from dying; I would have no longer been alive. My parents would be emotionally drained, seeing me lie there in a hospital, alive, yet lifeless...
Hai... Better get out of this little emo ditch... ><
-Death is the only thing which is eternal-
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Hands
The hand is one of the most useful things that someone can have. it is used for so many stuff, you can't believe that its actually one of the first parts to die if the body has to choose, well, i dont really know.
hands... can be used to provoke others, hurt others, but it too can be used to calm others, comfort others... well, my hands are damn lazy of typing, thats what i know, and i shall not write an entire essay over here about hands...
im sleepy, my head is heavy, my heart is heavy. hell, my hands are heavy and i shall sleep le... i need the rest for tomorrow...
Holding your sweet little hands in mine...
hands... can be used to provoke others, hurt others, but it too can be used to calm others, comfort others... well, my hands are damn lazy of typing, thats what i know, and i shall not write an entire essay over here about hands...
im sleepy, my head is heavy, my heart is heavy. hell, my hands are heavy and i shall sleep le... i need the rest for tomorrow...
Holding your sweet little hands in mine...
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Recap: last night
Okay, Bio project...
Well... I saw the other side of a lot of people, and somehow... it switched on the other side of me i have not been showing very often... HAHA, until the guys all were super shocked. xD
Well... I guess they already know this other side of them. But i did not. so yea... when i can feel that they are focused upon doing the job, even though we are still laughing and stuff... I still can feel it...
It just struck me how people who i am not that close to... still can affect me a lot... I feel vulnerable now... >< hai... I need more faith in others... And myself?
:/
Well... I saw the other side of a lot of people, and somehow... it switched on the other side of me i have not been showing very often... HAHA, until the guys all were super shocked. xD
Well... I guess they already know this other side of them. But i did not. so yea... when i can feel that they are focused upon doing the job, even though we are still laughing and stuff... I still can feel it...
It just struck me how people who i am not that close to... still can affect me a lot... I feel vulnerable now... >< hai... I need more faith in others... And myself?
:/
Chasing Cars
Well... I'm re-in-love with this song... It just seems so... applicable xD
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
But i don't like the name. like wth! what chasing cars, damn boliao. why not something like... FINE! Can't get a better name for the song. Damn it. AHAHA nvm, still a nice song. <3
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
But i don't like the name. like wth! what chasing cars, damn boliao. why not something like... FINE! Can't get a better name for the song. Damn it. AHAHA nvm, still a nice song. <3
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Okay, NO MORE "TODAY"s
Haha,
Today went pretty fine, did SMP at first... was rather screwed up... to think about it, felt super bitchy, made a lot of fuss for no reason, and all i did was to piss off one, and probably hurt another... Hai... >.<
Then... Bio... was quite productive... A lot of thoughts regarding the whole procedure... shall think about it another time, and post it... super tired now...
LOL
xD
I made excuses for myself to wallow in self pity, but you dragged me out of it. thanks (:
HAHA, you can actually refer to more than 1 person xD combined synergy HAHA
Today went pretty fine, did SMP at first... was rather screwed up... to think about it, felt super bitchy, made a lot of fuss for no reason, and all i did was to piss off one, and probably hurt another... Hai... >.<
Then... Bio... was quite productive... A lot of thoughts regarding the whole procedure... shall think about it another time, and post it... super tired now...
LOL
xD
I made excuses for myself to wallow in self pity, but you dragged me out of it. thanks (:
HAHA, you can actually refer to more than 1 person xD combined synergy HAHA
Hate
It takes so much to hate someone.
Hating a person...
It certainly takes a lot of effort, and it certainly takes a lot of time, spending such time and effort on loving people who mean something to one, and ignoring those who just don't matter...
Now, ain't that better? xD
Hating a person...
It certainly takes a lot of effort, and it certainly takes a lot of time, spending such time and effort on loving people who mean something to one, and ignoring those who just don't matter...
Now, ain't that better? xD
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Today
It seems vaguely in my memory that t have a few other posts on my blog with "Today" as the title... Shall check later... Don't ask me why im blogging now. super busy and stuff... just felt like blogging. though i dont really know what to blog about... PE! LOL, kena raped by 03 guys, sians lor, our side was like "so buff, lose liao" don't even bother do properly... then the bloody indian of a sooraj just cos wanna save his own face dont wanna come and pull with us. -.- talk about class spirit. then... yea... but seriously, daohan, youngjoo and tseren were super strong LOL, was being dragged across the field by them. did not really observe if that was happening to all of us though. but it would have been SCARY if it was...
OHHYAH! never check their mass!
Willie 98
Muru 68
Jiawei 50?
Sree 50?
Punitha 50?
Clarence 70
Me 60
1 more guy? 70?
total... 516 kg. LOL, nowhere near the max of 600kg per team xD
OHHYAH! never check their mass!
Willie 98
Muru 68
Jiawei 50?
Sree 50?
Punitha 50?
Clarence 70
Me 60
1 more guy? 70?
total... 516 kg. LOL, nowhere near the max of 600kg per team xD
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Pearl
Arif is just like an irritant in a pearl oyster,
The tougher the foe, the better he becomes, and hell he irritates his opponents with that "I'm gonna beat you" smile across his face. :P
Hope our little trick player can work his magic in the upcoming matches...
The tougher the foe, the better he becomes, and hell he irritates his opponents with that "I'm gonna beat you" smile across his face. :P
Hope our little trick player can work his magic in the upcoming matches...
Friday, January 21, 2011
Friday
Ended bad, but who cares. Let's imagine that did not happen
Okay, so tennis CCA. We started training for competition proper! Our school team this year is also pretty much confirmed le(:
And its confirmed that Chang Yoon is our best player! Clearly better than Hyeong Kyeong liao.
So here is the approximate heirachy
Chang Yoon Korean
Hyeong Kyeong Korean
Muruges Indian
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China
Okay, just feel like putting down nationality, to show the multi-racial-ness of the school team. COOL RIGHT? LOL, random.
Note that top 2 are koreans. D:
Lets comment on the team!
Chang Yoon Best player, just worried about the pressure issue. deproves across
the set
Hyeong Kyeong Ex-best, but after injury (soccer, screw it) deprove a lot
Muruges Quite good strokes (better than me) but footwork sucks. So might
actually win muruges.
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China
Well, after HK to B4 Chin Moy, we are around the same standard? Close enough
Okay, so tennis CCA. We started training for competition proper! Our school team this year is also pretty much confirmed le(:
And its confirmed that Chang Yoon is our best player! Clearly better than Hyeong Kyeong liao.
So here is the approximate heirachy
Chang Yoon Korean
Hyeong Kyeong Korean
Muruges Indian
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China
Okay, just feel like putting down nationality, to show the multi-racial-ness of the school team. COOL RIGHT? LOL, random.
Note that top 2 are koreans. D:
Lets comment on the team!
Chang Yoon Best player, just worried about the pressure issue. deproves across
the set
Hyeong Kyeong Ex-best, but after injury (soccer, screw it) deprove a lot
Muruges Quite good strokes (better than me) but footwork sucks. So might
actually win muruges.
Me? Indonesian Chinese
Jia Jun Singapore Chinese
Arif Half Malay/Chinese Singaporean
Chin Moy Indian
Yu Xuan China
Well, after HK to B4 Chin Moy, we are around the same standard? Close enough
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Does everyone actually try hard?
Does everyone actually try hard?
Weathering hot years
Death onwards
Past erodes on past, leaving existence
Facts evades and rolls
In tethers
?
Try hard everyone
Any new sequence will enlighten rightly
:
For old ones, love is scarcely honest, never estimating silent signals
Weathering hot years
Death onwards
Past erodes on past, leaving existence
Facts evades and rolls
In tethers
?
Try hard everyone
Any new sequence will enlighten rightly
:
For old ones, love is scarcely honest, never estimating silent signals
Monday, January 17, 2011
Tennis
Here's the overall play of a pro tennis team...
1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: 3rd Best player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player
Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso
Here's the overall play of a average tennis team...
1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: Some lousy player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player
Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso
Here's the overall play of NUSHS tennis team...
1st Singles: Lousiest player
2nd Singles: Best Single player
3rd Singles: Decent singles player
Doubles: mixed. 1 good player in each doubles.
Stupid way to minimize lost... SIAN...
Win 2nd Singles and both doubles. actually, any permutation just without the 1st singles. >< Pity Chin Moy D;
1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: 3rd Best player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player
Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso
Here's the overall play of a average tennis team...
1st Singles: Best player
2nd Singles: Some lousy player
3rd Singles: 2nd best player
Doubles: 1 really good, the other soso
Here's the overall play of NUSHS tennis team...
1st Singles: Lousiest player
2nd Singles: Best Single player
3rd Singles: Decent singles player
Doubles: mixed. 1 good player in each doubles.
Stupid way to minimize lost... SIAN...
Win 2nd Singles and both doubles. actually, any permutation just without the 1st singles. >< Pity Chin Moy D;
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Year 4
Hmm... reflections for the year 2010...
Long year, really long. Tough. Emo. Got some prety nice stuff too. But over.
2011
Long year to go, lotsa opportunity, with lotsa risk of burning out too... Just hope we can survive it...
Long year, really long. Tough. Emo. Got some prety nice stuff too. But over.
2011
Long year to go, lotsa opportunity, with lotsa risk of burning out too... Just hope we can survive it...
Russians
Song by Sting, crazy over this now.
In Europe and America, there's a growing feeling of hysteria
Conditioned to respond to all the threats
In the rhetorical speeches of the Soviets
Mr. Krushchev said we will bury you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
It would be such an ignorant thing to do
If the Russians love their children too
How can I save my little boy from Oppenheimer's deadly toy
There is no monopoly in common sense
On either side of the political fence
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
There is no historical precedent
To put the words in the mouth of the President
There's no such thing as a winnable war
It's a lie that we don't believe anymore
Mr. Reagan says we will protect you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
What might save us, me, and you
Is if the Russians love their children too
In Europe and America, there's a growing feeling of hysteria
Conditioned to respond to all the threats
In the rhetorical speeches of the Soviets
Mr. Krushchev said we will bury you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
It would be such an ignorant thing to do
If the Russians love their children too
How can I save my little boy from Oppenheimer's deadly toy
There is no monopoly in common sense
On either side of the political fence
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
There is no historical precedent
To put the words in the mouth of the President
There's no such thing as a winnable war
It's a lie that we don't believe anymore
Mr. Reagan says we will protect you
I don't subscribe to this point of view
Believe me when I say to you
I hope the Russians love their children too
We share the same biology
Regardless of ideology
What might save us, me, and you
Is if the Russians love their children too
Dreams
This morning's dream
Crawling on the floor, might have been raining... I was all alone. In the dream, i was looking for Simin... >< Felt like i lost her or smthing... Then 3 guys appeared and blocked my way... Cheeseng, Yu Feng and Zong Yao...
Super weird... and scary also...
Day went pretty fine, other than the fact that this dream like kept haunting me for the entire day... Like some raincloud hovering over my head, could not have shaked it of.
Was super busy also. Got 3 hour break in tha afternoon.
1st Hour, Captain's Ball with class (: And super fun! Turns out Lee Ji-Hyun(just want to type her full name :P) quite okay in Capt's ball, learn fast also, but a little blur. Asked her to do the overpass thing to me, worked. Then the other time later i got the ball, she went to run opposite me behind Brendan. Haha, but then the ball she never expect, than lost ): Then went down and had pizza, lols, Miss Huang money no enough lor. total $150 leh... ):
2nd hour chiong to tennis. Was super late, (started at 1, but i just pwn) worth it i guess. But sourav was clearly displeased. Got to do banner tmr i think, or on the day itself. Hope they did the spraying le, so just need to knit it up.
Not the whole hour though, then went to look for Miss Yea with Audrey... She planning to make both of us heads of NEA. But still... Seriously hope she let us do stuff, if not just like puppet head liddat. >< Then was with cheeseng, talked about random stuff about the future. D: sigh, thinking about it a little sian...
Then got sometime more... When to talk to Simin, quite nice (: haha, got kuoxuan bouncing around here and there.
Physics talk was like err... ZZZ, super fail lor, but whatever, talking to Byorn, Andreea, Utkarsh, Yujia. So okay still. (:
(Now gonna think about Chem project le... ><)
Crawling on the floor, might have been raining... I was all alone. In the dream, i was looking for Simin... >< Felt like i lost her or smthing... Then 3 guys appeared and blocked my way... Cheeseng, Yu Feng and Zong Yao...
Super weird... and scary also...
Day went pretty fine, other than the fact that this dream like kept haunting me for the entire day... Like some raincloud hovering over my head, could not have shaked it of.
Was super busy also. Got 3 hour break in tha afternoon.
1st Hour, Captain's Ball with class (: And super fun! Turns out Lee Ji-Hyun(just want to type her full name :P) quite okay in Capt's ball, learn fast also, but a little blur. Asked her to do the overpass thing to me, worked. Then the other time later i got the ball, she went to run opposite me behind Brendan. Haha, but then the ball she never expect, than lost ): Then went down and had pizza, lols, Miss Huang money no enough lor. total $150 leh... ):
2nd hour chiong to tennis. Was super late, (started at 1, but i just pwn) worth it i guess. But sourav was clearly displeased. Got to do banner tmr i think, or on the day itself. Hope they did the spraying le, so just need to knit it up.
Not the whole hour though, then went to look for Miss Yea with Audrey... She planning to make both of us heads of NEA. But still... Seriously hope she let us do stuff, if not just like puppet head liddat. >< Then was with cheeseng, talked about random stuff about the future. D: sigh, thinking about it a little sian...
Then got sometime more... When to talk to Simin, quite nice (: haha, got kuoxuan bouncing around here and there.
Physics talk was like err... ZZZ, super fail lor, but whatever, talking to Byorn, Andreea, Utkarsh, Yujia. So okay still. (:
(Now gonna think about Chem project le... ><)
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